Utatane Piko x Reader - Trapped

Chapter 17

I suddenly felt like I needed to do something before he woke up. Sitting still just felt too unproductive. I idly messed with my clothes and hair, trying to do something to keep myself busy. I paused, what was I going to say? How was I going to explain what had happened on the roof? I had acted so irrationally it was ridiculous. There was no way I could tell him that it was because of a dream I had had. But then again, how could I lie to him?

"You're pacing." A voice spoke. I stopped, smiling as I realized that I had in fact been pacing. I turned around, smiling at the now alert Piko.

"You sure?" I teased. He smiled, but he seemed uneasy.

"Hey um... Does me being a... a, you know, a," he hesitated for a long time, until I nodded, showing I understood, "Doesn't it bother you?"

I smiled, and walked over to where he was sitting.

"Not one bit." I bent over and hugged him, taking him by surprise.

"About what happened on the roof... Well I just... I kinda..." I paused, sitting on my bed, avoiding eye contact. I didn't know how to get this out, let alone where to start. "I don't know what came over me. I've always been distant from people and the last time I had a friend it didn't... Let's just say it didn't end well. The night before I had had a dream. It was pretty awful, and you were in it," I paused, not wanting to go into too much detail, "and well, you betrayed me. The dream kinda made me paranoid and it made me think of the last time I let someone in and I just freaked out." I sighed, trying to fight back tears. Piko noticed this, and put a hand on my shoulder. I turned my head away. I don't deserve his affection. He cares about me so much and I doubted that just because of a dream.

"_____, listen. I know that you regret what happened on the roof. There's proof of that in everything you've done since then," I turned my head back to see him slowly moving to sit next to me on my bed. I scooted over a little, inviting him to sit next to me. "I mean, look at all you've done."

"I know..." I muttered looking down at the floor. Piko shook his head, and gently grabbed my chin to return my gaze to him.

"I didn't mean it like that," he said softly, "Look at what you've done since you got out of the hospital. You found me during lunch, tried to talk to me even after you had found out that I wasn't the same. You figured out what the USB was for, and even got me to agree to using it," he laughed at this, and I smiled a little, "and now you're crying trying to apologize for what you did. _____, I already forgave you. Even on the roof, I knew you weren't thinking straight. I knew that you would never do something like that."

Piko paused for a while, maybe waiting for me to do something, or say something, but I didn't want to interrupt his thoughts, so I waited for him to continue, watching him stare at the floor, jaw clenched shut.

"I just wish that you had talked to me about it rather than trying to deal with it all on your own," Piko made eye contact with me, then continued, "You do know that you can talk to me about that stuff, right?"

I tried to fight the tears, I did everything I could to stop them. I shook my head as I began to sob.

"I know I should have just... Why didn't I... I know I can trust you... I didn't want..." I kept crying, filled with shame and regret. Piko wrapped his arms around me, whispering comforting words into my ear. I felt better the instant he hugged me. He's so warm and smells like comfort, there's no way for me to not feel safe when he hugs me. After a while, I calm down, the tears stop flowing, and my breathing returns to normal.

"Better?" Piko asks, and I nod and smile. Something is itching at the back of my mind, but I almost can't bring myself to say it.

"Hey, um... Uh Piko there's something that I... something I want to say..." i laugh at myself a little, remembering what Piko had said earlier about openness, "I..."

My voice trails off, and I pause for a second. Should I say it? I have to, I resolved.

"Piko, I like you." I breathed the words out, and threw my arms around him, embracing him with all the affection I had. He laughed a little, and hugged me back.

"I like you too, _____."

I felt butterflies fluttering in my stomach, something I hadn't felt before, and it made me feel a little giddy. I smiled, and squeezed him a little bit before slowly letting go.

"You know, I'm really glad that you gave me that USB," I said, rising to grab it from my desk, "I believe this is yours." I smiled, offering him his memory.

Piko smiled at me, and closed my fingers around it. "I want you to have it," I opened my mouth to protest, but he stopped me by continuing, "You have obviously proved to be able to keep it safe, and who knows, maybe I'll forget everything again and you'll have to make me remember."

We both smiled, and I sat down next to him again. I felt happier than I could ever remember being. Feeling bold, I rested my head on Piko's shoulder, a little scared at my own actions, but I trusted Piko.

He laughed a little, "Feeling courageous, are we?" I jumped a little when Piko put his head on top of mine, the butterflies multiplying and fluttering faster than before. I smiled, closing my eyes, breathing in Piko's smell. Everything was so peaceful.

This is how it was meant to be.

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AHHHHH i feel like im done

I am done

WHY AM I DONE
I know, i know you want more
But im afraid that's all i got

Depending on demand, I may write an epilogue. So, if you want more, say so! And give me ideas!!!!! I have no idea what to put in an epilogue so say what you want to see in it, and I'll try to accommodate your desires.

Im so sorry that it took me so long to get this update out... i really have no excuses for it. I went onto wattpad today, and kinda flipped when I saw i had 65 notifications.

Thank you all so much for all of your support throughout this whole process. Especially with how infrequently and slow I update 0-0

I will write more, but I have no idea what. I do take requests, so if you want me to write a fic, I can do that for you (just no lemons, i cant write that stuff XD) just put a comment on my page or send me a message or an email (although if you do that im going to be slightly concerned because my email isnt publicly available on my wattpad account...) or send a messenger hawk (i might not send it back :3) just send me something!!

Ahhh the last part of this chapter was mushy
I feel like it was really bad 0-0
Seriously though its pretty crappy... and kinda awkward. OH WELL

If you could tell me how you think I did on the mushy last part I would really appreciate that ;) *hint hint*

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