Sandersides Oneshots

Buddy The Diary

895 words.
Please, just don't question this chapter.

Tw: Sad!Emile, Abusive!Logan, Abusive!Remus, Unsympathetic!Sides, mention of physical and emotional abuse, humiliation, punishment, swearing,attempted suicide,diaper, littlespace being used as a punishment (I think) I think that's it. If there is more, please tell me!

Emile's diary
Keep out or else I'll steal your cookie privileges!

May 1st

Dear diary,
I stole one of Virgil's hoodie today!  It's so soft and warm, it feels like I'm being hugged all day long! Imma wear it forever!
Evy asked if I wanted to hang out, but I had to help Roman with his script. He said my ideas were silly, so he told me to leave. It was my fault anyways!

May 2nd

Dear diary,
Today, I asked Logan if I could borrow one of his books. He said no, cause apparently I ruined his last one. I didn't! I promise, Diary! I wouldn't do that because it's mean and  I know how much Lolo-Bear loves his books!
Janus asked if I could look after his snakes for a while, it was so fun! I played with them, fed them and made sure they were warm enough. I don't know what I did wrong though, cause Janus said I didn't look after them properly. I'll have to research it!

May 3rd

Virgil yelled at me today. I mean, I deserved it! I stole his hoodie and didn't give it back, so he had every right to yell at me. Right? Right!

I asked Remus if he wanted to hang out, but he said I'm too similar to Patton. Maybe if I show them that I'm not innocent, he'll hang out with me? I'll have to try it out.

April 12th

Dear diary,
Sorry for not writing. The others confiscated my diary and read it. Logan said I was being too sensitive and Remus said I was making them seem like the bad guys. The tone in their voices k̶i̶n̶d̶a̶ kind of scared me. They were right, though. I'm being too sensitive.

April 13th

Dear diary,
Today is Friday the thirteenth. The "spooky" day according to Patton. Nothing changed today. I got beat for being sensitive and stupid, I cleaned the house and did everyone's chores. The only thing different is that Patton made fun of my dress that Remus and Logan bought for me. I understand why though, the apron makes me look silly.

April 14th

Im going to be punished for a week. Rmeus and Logan caught me in my room and now they all know about my secret and they made fun of me! I deserve it though, I poked Remus. More later.

April 22nd.

The punishment was so embarrassing! They found out I'm a little and I had to be the baby for the week! They made me wear a diaper and baby clothes infront of everyone. I hated it, especially when they found out about my.. Little nighttime problem. I'm going to be perfect from now on, that was so embarrassing!

April 26th

Patton and Roman keep making fun of me, and R̶e̶m̶u̶s̶ Master keeps telling them to carry on. I hate this! I never asked for this, all I wanted was them to like me! It all started when I stopped pretending to be innocent, but they didn't like that. And now, everyone makes fun of me and they keep insulting me. I'm going to make a list of all the insults I get a day.

April 27th

Slut,whore,brat,baby,stupid crybaby, weak, Maid, dumbass, bitch, piece of shit,useless, worthless.

All the insults for today, most of them more than once. Don't want to talk today

August 23rd

No one would care if I died. They all make that so clear, insulting me twenty four seven, beating me, humiliating me even with people I don't even know. They made me go to the store in a diaper and a maids dress, not to mention the collar. I fucking hated it, especially when some kid yelled out I was wearing a diaper. Everyone stared at me, snorting when L̶o̶g̶a̶n̶ Sir lifted my skirt. Some people recorded it, I'm pretty sure. He smacked me as we left, saying I was a disgusting disease. I agree with him.

August 24th

I'm done. I'm fucking done with it all. I want to end it all, but I can't. Tomorrow is Evy's birthday, so I'm going to wait. I have to wait. I'm going to leave everyone a present, and then I can be happy again. I'll talk soon.

January 4th

Dear diary,
Sorry for not talking to you in forever. Evy saved me from the hell hole I used to all home and we accidentally left my diary. It's been a couple months and I still have flashbacks. I'll be okay, though. Evy introduced me to Remy, and he's super nice! He brings me lemonade and cake if I aks him too, which is sweet. He's Evy's bestie, and he works in a cafe. He's so hot!

January 1st (The next year)

Dear diary.
You are all filled up, I've been sticking in pages just to have more space. I have a new life now. Remy and Evy and me are gonna move in together, and we are going to Foster a little girl named Starcey. I can't wait! I might get a new diary though. You were the only thing that kept me going for so long that I've decided to give you a name. You are now called Buddy because you were my only friend in my darkest time. Goodbye, Buddy. I'll never forget you.