My mom found out because my boyfriend freaked out when I told him. She asked me why we hadn't spoken for a week and I simply told her because he doesn't want me to be a boy. She got pissed.
The first words out of her mouth when I started crying and said it was hard to explain were:
"Are you too much of a crybaby to tell me, princess?"
And honestly that hurt worse than it would've if she just had said 'she'. She tries to act all nonjudgmental about stuff but really she is. I told her I felt more like a boy than I do a girl. Like a boy trapped in a girls body. She laughed, called me by my female name, used female pronouns and finally just acted like I'm not transgender and that I had never said anything about it. I was hurt. Really hurt. My boyfriend thinks I'm a freak, my mother chooses to mock my feelings. No one understood. Then I met Tylor, who only talked to me to try to get naked photos of me. I just gave up at that point. I had been a month clean thanks to my boyfriend, but I just got shoved over the edge. I cut for the first time in so many long days. I'm not going to sugar coat this shit. It felt amazing, so much pain going numb with the red flow. Out with emotional in with physical. 30 that night alone. I cried afterward. I hadn't met to break my promise to my boyfriend. I haven't told him yet, and I don't want to. Hid birthday is coming up and I'm going to a party with him and a bunch of his guy friends, indoors and i might spend the night. I really hope my cuts heal in time. He's brushed the whole transgender thing off when I told him, so I can't even be happy when I'm with him. I mean yes, I'm happy with him but not the happiest I could be.
X Zachary X
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From Maddy to Zachary
AcakThis is my story. My transition from Maddy to Zachary. Don't like anything not 'straight'? Don't read this then, simple as that. If you want to ask questions, ask me. I'll answer them.
