wish i were heather... || Skeppy x Reader FF

heather

You and Zak finished eating at Starbucks and decided to go home, as he saw you getting sleepy. Your eyes became heavier along the way home. He sees you slowly drifting off to sleep, and holds your hand using his free hand. You notice and you felt even more comfortable with him holding your hand. He keeps checking on you to make sure you are well rested. He smiles, and thinks that you drifting off was cute. He smiles, and focuses back on the road. And soon, you were sleeping soundly with Zak holding on to you.

"(Y/n)...Moonie, wake up. We're home."

You open your eyes to see you and Zak's home right in front on you. You were still in his car. Zak laughs and brushes your hair to the back. "You alright, Moonie?" You nod slightly and yawn. He smiled even wider. You see his bright and sweet smile and your eyes immediately open. "You look cute." You say, with your voice still raspy. Zak grins. "You too." He replies back. At this time, you realize that your friendship with him was even more special than most couples.

He helps you out from the car and holds on to your shoulders. He helps you open the door and brings you straight upstairs to your room. He sits you down on your bed and cups your still sleepy face. "You wanna sleep again?" You smile and shake your head. "Nah, I have to go wash our clothes. Now you, go produce quality content. But if you're tired, you can rest and I'll go to work." Zak gives you a warm hug and sighs. "What will I do without you?" You smile as a tear rolls down your cheek.

"What will I do without you, too?" 

You slowly wipe away your tear and pull back from Zak's hug. " You should go to your room now. I have to, you know." "Oh, yeah. Right. See ya, love." Zak gives you a kiss of the forehead and leaves your room. That one kiss made you feel warm all over.
As soon as Zak leaves your room, and closes the door, you start to break down and pull the blankets aggressively. Your tears couldn't stop rolling down, and your heart just kept hurting. You mess up your hair, and see a pair of scissors on the table next to your bed. You take it, and open it, so that the sharp end was showing. And slowly, a little bit of blood was coming out from your arms. You stopped crying, and felt relieved, that the pain stopped.

You walk out from your room after cleaning your scar and changing your clothes. You wore a long sleeved hoodie that was Zak's 3 Million Subscribers special hoodie. You go down to the kitchen and take a bottle of water, and went back upstairs, to give it to Zak. You try your best to hide your scar, as he has seen it before. You knock on his door before entering and he calls you to come in. He was recording a video with face cam on. You crept next to his camera and gave him his water. He smiles at you and looks at your arm, when he sees something red on your arm.

Zak stands up, take off his headphones and opens the sleeve of your hoodie to reveal your fresh scar. He sighs. "(Y/n)...why did you do this? I told you not to! You could've gotten an infection!" You try to pull away your arm, but he kept on holding on to it. "I-It's fine...I-I swear..." "No, it's not fine! Come on." He drags you to his bed and lets you sit down. He takes out a med kit from under his bed. He takes out an antiseptic and spreads it across your scar. It burned. "Ah, shit!" You squeal. Zak blows on it and after he finished, he puts on a bandage on your arm. You look at him, wondering how he could keep up with you hurting yourself. "Zak...I'm sorry." Zak looks at you lovingly and holds your hands. "No, no. It's fine. Next time, please don't do this again. It's unhealthy. If you have anything to tell me, just tell me. I'm always here for you." You nod and hug him.

It's now the afternoon. You and Zak usually go for a walk outside, cleaning up the front yard or just exercising. You and Zak just finished from jogging, and was just about to go back inside, when suddenly a voice comes from behind both of you.

"Hi!"

A bubbly voice could be heard. You turn around to see a girl, around your age standing still with her hands behind the back. She had long, brown hair with hazel eyes. She was not too tall, and not too short. Zak turned behind him to see the beautiful girl as well. His looks changed.

"Sorry, to disturb you both. I'm Heather! I just moved in just a few houses from here." She hands out her hand to Zak. He takes it and shakes. "I'm Zak. Oh and this is my friend, (Y/n). We live together. You know, kinda like brother and sister." Your heart breaks a little. You smile at Heather. "Nice to meet you." That's all you said. You nod slightly and whisper into Zak's ear. "I'm going in." Zak nods and holds you for a while. He whispers back, "Don't hurt yourself, okay?" You smile and go inside the house. You stand by the door to listen to their conversation.

Heather smiles at Zak. "So, are you dating her?" He shakes his head. "Nah, I couldn't date her. She's like my little sister." Heather laughs. "So you're single then?" Zak nods and laughs as well. "Well, I'm throwing a party tonight along with some other friends. Would you like to come over?" He raises his shoulders. "Sure, why not? I mean, it feels like it has been forever since I went to a party." "Great! I'll see you tonight!" She winks at him and before she skips away, she forgets to tell him something. "Oh and, you can invite (Y/n) too! You know what they say, the more, the merrier!" She winks at Zak and skips away happily back to her home.

Zak enters the house and looks around the empty hallway. He hears the sound of crying coming from upstairs. He runs up and goes straight to your room. Just when he was about to open the door, he found out that it was locked. "(Y/n)! Open the door. Please, don't do it." Inside, you were breaking down again. Fortunately, you didn't hurt yourself like before. You hear Zak's calming voice and stop crying. "Moonie, please. If you have anything to te me, please spit it out. I can't just fucking stay here watching you hurt." "Just, give me a moment. Please, Zak. I want to be alone." You say, with your last remaining energy. Zak sighs and walks away. You look at the door, hoping that you had the courage to go out and hug him. You bury your head in your knees and whisper to yourself,

"If only you knew that you were the cause of my pain..."