wish i were heather... || Skeppy x Reader FF

from afar

The team arrives at the hotel an hour ago, and it was getting darker now. George has been picked up by Dream earlier. You sit on your hotel bed, rearranging your clothes. Someone knocks on your door, it was Vianna. You open it and is greeted by a big smile. "Hi! Am I disturbing you?" You shake your head. "No, of course not! Come in!"

She enters your room and you close the door behind you. "So, how's it feel like being back at home?" You laugh and sit next to her on your bed. "It's, a mix between happy and sad." Vianna cocks her head. "Do you know the Greek word, 'charmolypi'?" She shakes her head.  

"It means, 'joy-making sorrow.' A mixed feeling of happiness while being sad. The word is very unusual, but the meaning is beautiful. It also can't be translated." Vianna was very interested. "Wow, that was, deep." You smile and raise an eyebrow. "Yeah, yeah. It sure is." Silent filled the room. The last time you both talked was 5 years ago, and now it was very awkward. 

"Anyways, aren't you ask me about him?" You lift up your head. "Him?" You say softly. "Why should I?" Vianna sighs. "I know you wanna ask me about him." A flash came into your head. The airport, 5 years ago. The kiss. It filled you. You look up to see Vianna, looking at you. "H-How is he?" 

Vianna smiles. "He's great. Darryl has always been staying next to him after you left. Me and Jenn would always hang out with him. He never forgot you, (Y/n). He never has." You let out a sigh of relief. The thought of Zak still remembering you after all these years really made you feel better. "Don't you wanna meet him?" Vianna asks innocently. "No, not now." You answer right away. 

She gets worried if you really don't want to meet Zak. You take her hand and a tear falls on it. "(Y/n)..." "I don't want to get hurt again, Via. Seeing him only makes it worse." Your voice cracks. She pulls you into a hug, and pats you on the back. You cry in her shoulders, and the night becomes darker.

• • •

At Zak's house, Jennifer was helping him clean the house up. They finished around half an hour ago, but she decided to stick around to keep him company. "You really sure John won't mind you being here?" says Zak, feeling doubtful. John is Jennifer's boyfriend. They started dating 3 years ago.

Jennifer groans and rolls her eyes. "Yes! Oh my goodness, Zak. That's the 5th time you asked today!" He laughs nervously and heads to the kitchen. He takes out two orange juice bottles from the fridge and gave one to Jennifer. "Thanks." She says. He sat down and opened his bottle. 

Suddenly, Jennifer gets a text from Vianna. She takes out her phone and looks at the message. She almost drops her bottle and she was containing her happiness. "Oh my fucking goodness. It couldn't be." Zak wonders. "Why, is there anything wrong?" Her tears almost fell out. She fans herself using her hand and screams. 

"Jenn, is there something wrong?" Zak was getting frustrated. Jennifer calms down and smiles at him. "I, have to go." "What?" She stands up and gets her bag. "There's an emergency. With, Via." Zak thought it was about girl stuff so he just stayed silent. "Oh, um, okay, I guess?" She runs out the door and runs to her car. "Bye Zak!" She shouts from her car.

Zak waves back at her, and her car drives into the road quicker than a train. He was still confused on what is happening but he closes the door anyways, and goes upstairs to his room. 

• • •

Jennifer parks her car on the roadside, and goes into a cafe that wasn't too crowded. She searches the room, and sees two people sitting down opposite of each other while drinking coffee. She runs towards them and squeals.

"(Y/n)! Ahhh!" She sits down next to you and hugs you so tightly. You hug her back, and you really missed her hugs, they were the best. Vianna looks at you two, smiling like a proud older sister. "Jenn! Oh my god, you look stunning!" She laughs. "Holy shit, your accent! It's amazing!" Your English accent really thickened during the past 5 years. 

She sat down properly and placed her bag down in front of her. "When did you arrive? Why didn't you tell us!" You giggle quietly. "I'm sorry, haha! I changed my phone number when I was in England." Jennifer hits you playfully. "Girl!" You both laugh hysterically. Vianna looks at the two of you like a proud big sister. "So, tell us, (Y/n), why don't you want to go back home?" You smile, confused. "Home? I'm here, aren't I?"

"Your home."

You realized. Home. Zak. You shake your head, Jennifer's smile faded away. "I told you earlier. I just, can't." "(Y/n), Zak is always alone. Although he has us and Darryl, most of the time he's on his own." Jennifer says softly. Never have you heard that Zak was on his own. Until 5 years ago. "Look, I know I'm back in Florida, and I really missed you two, but him? It's really hard to meet someone that knows I was the cause of this shit."

Jennifer and Vianna look at each other, their eyes full of sadness. You try to hold back your tears. Suddenly, Vianna gasps. You and Jennifer look at her. "Why didn't I think of that sooner!" You raise an eyebrow. She claps her hands once and flashes a bright smile.

"Instead of actually going to see him, we can just stop by in front of the house! Usually at this time, Zak is editing his videos." Jennifer nods as an agreement, but you hesitate. "I'm not so sure, girls..." "(Y/n), please. Just look at it? It's been 5 years." Jennifer persuades you. 

After a lot of thinking, you have made your decision. "Ok, fine. But not for long, alright?" 

• • •

Zak lies down on his bed, staring at the ceiling for who knows how long. He gets his phone and goes on to YouTube. He searches for a specific song, and puts it down next to his head. The songs starts playing, it was 'Love is Gone' by SLANDER ft. Dylan Matthew. He sings along. 

"I'm sorry, don't leave me. I want you here with me. I know that your love is gone. I can't breathe, I'm so weak. I know this isn't easy. Don't tell me that your love is gone, that your love is gone."

A tear rolls down on the side of his eye, and creates a patch of tears on his pillow. He closes his eyes, and reminds of what your love is like.

Outside, Jennifer slows down the car in front of the house. You look outside of the window. Wow, it hasn't changed. Not one bit. The yellow Audi still parked outside of the garage, like he always does. You look at the window of your room to see inside that the light was turned on.

"Why is my light turned on?" Jennifer peeks out the window and smiles. "He keeps it turned on every night so that he can remind himself that you're not really gone." You sigh, thinking about how lonely Zak must have been every night. 

Without you noticing, you start to cry, your hand on your mouth, trying very hard to stop, but you can't. Vianna hugs you form behind, her chin rested on your shoulder. "You okay?" You sniff, and nod. "Yeah, I'm fine." You forced yourself to smile, even though you're really hurting right now. 

"I'm just happy that I could see this place one more time, even from afar."