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Chapter 46: Friends

"Ah-" Jungkook made a loud sigh. "-Taehyung-ah." he put his hand behind his neck.

"What are you doing in here with Jazzy?!" Taehyung yelled at him.

Jungkook tried to reason out with him. Taehyung started yelling in Korean. It was all too fast for me to understand a single word. Then he pushed the door aside making Jungkook take a step back to keep his balance. He walked in and grabbed me by the wrist. He pulled me out of my apartment, down the hallway, and into his.

"Ya!" I heard Jungkook yell from my place, just before Taehyung slammed his door.

He basically threw me onto his couch.

"Why are you with him?!"

"What is he doing in your apartment?!"

"Why are you ignoring me?!"

"Kim Taehyung!" 

All the emotions I have kept hidden in my mind and heart were about to come out.

"I did not ignore you, and I never wanted to!"

I took a deep breath to sort out what I would say next.

"The way I am when I am around you, is not the same way I am with other people, especially with others whom I have liked before."

"It has taken me a while, a long while, to figure out what I really feel towards you."

"If the feelings I had were just as a fan or something more."

"You have always been the guy that filled my phone's gallery."

"You have always been the guy that never fails to surprise me."

"You have always been the guy that I longed to meet."

"You have always been the guy that I dreamed of in my sleep."

"Our short but meaningful conversations at home, on the rooftop, over meals."

"Our short walks around Hongdae."

"Our trip to Jeju."

"Our visit at Namsan."

"The way you tease me with your alluring eyes."

"The way you make fun of me."

"The way you hold my hand."

"The way you hug me from behind."

"The way you speak to me."

"They all made me love you, Taehyung."

I looked up at him. He was surprised which made his eyes round. He dropped his arms from crossing them in front of him.

"When I saw you last night, with that girl, it hit me. All those traits and little habits of yours, the way we spent time together, and the way you exerted effort into what you do."

"I realized, I truly love you."

"I love you, Taehyung."

"I really do." I continued.

"But the way you treated Jimin, seems unforgivable. How could you do that to him? After what he has done for you?"

"And the way you made me feel last night, I felt insignificant, unnecessary, inconsistent. Like I meant nothing to you even after you told me how you felt."