Secrets

chapter 6

I shot him, but didn’t kill him. We went back to NCIS to get her statement. you should’ve actually killed him, but you didn’t......why not? You had the chance. That's not who I am. What if it is?
“Kelly, go home.” Dad said. ‘You serious’ I thought.
“Why?”
“You need to rest. Go. now. I don’t want to see you back here until your maternity leave is up. That’s not a request, it’s an order.” I rolled my eyes, I got my things,  Shannon and left. We went home, although I really didn’t want to. We did our usual night routine, then Griffin and I talked. I wasn’t sleeping tonight, I was too scared, I didn’t want Isabelle to be gone again.

“You’re not going to sleep are you?” Griffin said.
“No, I’m not. There wouldn't be a point anyway.”
“You would at least have a little bit of energy for tomorrow.”
“I’m not doing anything tomorrow. I can’t go into work, you heard what he said.”
“We can still have a good time here.”
“How, there’s nothing to do.”
“Well, Maddie and Mike could come over, stay for a few days. We could always go shopping, or to the park.”
“Fine, I’ll call Maddie and see if they’re free.”

They came over within the hour, Griffin and Mike played video games, while Maddie and I talked. Griffin made dinner, Maddie and I were in the room talking. We heard them competing and yelling at the tv because one of them was losing.
“You okay?” Maddie asked, sitting on the bed beside me.
“Yeah. Why?”
“Everything that’s happened.”
“Speaking of.” she rolled her eyes.
“Don’t start.”
“I was told that you threatened Dr. Holt. and threw him down.”
“Maybe. You’d do the same for me.”  She said, smirking.
“True. Are you okay? You seem… I don’t know.. Different.”

She looked down, I knew it was serious. Which made me nervous.
“Mad?”
“I- uh. I might be pregnant.” I started smiling.
“You for real?”
“Yeah.” she still seemed down.
“Then why are you so upset.” the smile faded.
“Because..” She was trying not to cry.
“Mad, what is it? Come on, tell me.” I said, not really sure where this was going.
“Kelly, I-” She nearly broke down. I couldn’t tell where this was going.
“Are you worried that Mike won’t be happy?”
“That’s part of it.”
“Then what’s the other part?” She was still hesitant. I shut the door, trying to make her feel safer.

“Is it not Mike’s?” I asked, it sounded like a dumb question but still.
“N-no. that’s why I’m this upset. I don’t know how to tell him.”
“I’m honestly confused, I’m not trying to jump to conclusions but. Did you cheat on Mike?”
“No, I would never.”
“Then… who’s is it?”

She broke down. I pulled her into a hug. I stroked her hair, knowing it would calm her.
“Mad, who’s the father?”
“I- I… I think it’s Dr. Holt’s.” I pulled away, looking at her.
“What do you mean?”
“A few months after the gender reveal, and a week before Shannon was born. I got a call, saying that they had you and that you were having complications. When I got to the front desk they told me what room to go to. When I got there no one was there, except him. I asked where you were. He said that you weren’t coming, he shut and locked the door.” She paused.

“I asked him why he called me then he slapped me. And-”
“Mad, you don’t have to continue.” I said, pulling her into a hug. My heart broke.
“No, Kelly. I need to tell you this.”
“Tell me what.”
“He said that if I tried or thought about fighting back, then he’d kill you and Your baby.”
“Are you serious.”
“Yeah. but I didn’t fight back. I was too scared for you, But he still kidnapped you. Why?”
“Mad, how did he look familiar to you?”
“He just did. I- I-” she paused, collecting her thoughts.
******
"You ready?" Jayden said, walking into his room. Maddie and I were playing in the livingroom.
"Yeah." Some guy said, he had a camera.
"Come on Emily, it's time for some fun"  the other man had a odd look on his face.
****
“He was the one recording.” I said.
"Oh my god. How could I not see it?"
"Repressed memories, they are tricky as hell." It was silent for a moment.