Please... make it stop... it hurts... | Depressed Deku AU

Chapter Two

Self harm warning in this chapter and suicide mentioned.

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Katsuki's POV

"ka-kacchan... stop... w-why do yo-you... h-hate me s-so much...?" Deku said as tears filled his eyes.

I stopped.

Hate... him? I don't hate him... I never hated him...

I need him to know that I don't... I need to tell him!

"that's really a question? Look at yourself. how could I not hate a piece of shit like you?" 

FUCK!! why am I such an arrogant idiot?!?

 I kick him in the face and left him there...

I gave him one fleeting glance and saw he wasn't even looking up from the ground. he just stared down at I with such a sadness...

I felt a small pain in my chest, but I just ignored it.

"Stupid nerd..." I say as I walk off to go hang out with my quote on quote 'friends'

Izuku's POV

as I reached my house I unlocked the door and my mom's voice rang through the house.

"oh, is that you Izuku?" She yelled.

"yeah it's me mom!" I yelled back.

"how was school?" I sat my school bag down on the floor and took off my shoes.

"great mom!" I say with forced happiness.

"that's great honey!~" I walk down the hall to my room, not wanting my mother to see my burns and bleeding fists.

as I enter my room I lock the door and head into the bathroom. I look into the mirror and see all the burns that Kacchan gave me...

"Pathetic..." I say as I begin to undress and step into the shower. the water stung for a bit but I got used to it. 

when I got out of the shower the pain in my chest was throbbing. but this pain isn't caused by Kacchan... this pain is the pain of thousands of horrible thoughts effecting me... although I'm not entirely sure how to describe it...

I walk over to my closest and put on a brand new pair of clothes. I then, walk back into he bathroom and open my medical cabinet. I pull out a cold metal razor blade.

it's not like this is my first time cutting. I have scars of my previous cuts all over my thighs, and some on my wist

I always hesitated to I bring the cold metal to my skin. 

'so pathetic' I think as I slide the razors down my thigh, making tiny beads of blood appear. soon the blood was gushing down my leg. it hurt a lot... but I didn't care...

the pain in my chest was slowly fading away as I cut more and more of my leg. I was in so much pain. but I didn't really feel it...

2 cuts 

'Useless'

4 cuts

'Pathetic'

10 cuts

'Waste of a person'

17 cuts

'you should just die'

my blood was everywhere.

"SHIT!!" I say as I desperately try to clean the floor. my vision began to become blurred as I do this. I didn't realize how much blood I lost.

"SHITSHITSHITSHIT!!!" I yell as I feel my conciseness slipping. I hear a knock on my door as my body fell limp and every faded to black...

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Hi, sorry about the short chapter. I'm using this as more of a venting thing for me so thank you for reading. 

will Izuku be ok? will he live or will he die? read more to find out~ 

Byeeee!!