Please... make it stop... it hurts... | Depressed Deku AU

Chapter Six

third person

Izuku looked conflicted as he thought of the torture Bakugo put him through. what pain he's suffered at the hands of his childhood 'friend'. all the bullying of all of his other 'classmates'. what could happen if Izuku did change schools? What would happen?

'would I still get bullied? I am quirkless after all...' Izuku thought.

after what felt like an eternity for poor Inko, Izuku smiled a genuine smile and started to cry.

"T-Thank you mom" Izuku said through his sobs of happiness. 

'things will get better...' Izuku thought. 'they have to... 

right...?' 

but one lingering thought tugged at his mind. he stopped smiling for a quick second, hit by the sudden realization. 

'do I really deserve to be happy?'  

Izuku decided to ignore it for now. right now he thinks 'Let's just be happy for now and be sad when it's the right time for it. let's enjoy what life I have now. and if not for me, for my mom and all the other people who care about me.'

One week later (Izuku is out of the hospital)

Izuku's POV

As I wait for my mom to finish the paperwork to get me out of the hospital, I think about all the things that can go wrong at this new school.

'Will I be bullied?' Pfft of course I will, I am quirkless...

'Will it be any different?' probably not...

'Will I have real friends?' who would want to be friends with me?

'do I really care?" Nah, not really.

More questions swirled around my head as me and my mom comes to where I was sitting on a blue plastic chair.  she gestures for me to follow her. as we get into the car mom says, "Let's go pick up your school stuff from your locker, then we can go home. Ok?" 

I simply nod.

as we drove to my school to get my stuff from my locker more thought swirled around my head.

'who will replace Kacchan's bullying? Will this new school really be so different? what will happen there? Will it just lead to more suffering and bullying? Am I really that pathetic to let them bully me...? Do I deserve to die?' 

"Izuku, honey, your mumbling again..." My mom said, I blushed slightly that I was mumbling the hole time. 

'Shit' I think, in my head this time. 

"S-Sorry mom..." I say as I look down at my lap, sightly ashamed. I try to wave it off and start a new conversation.

"S-So mom-" I was cut off.

" Izuku, promise you'll be careful in that school. I'll tell me if anything happens?" I looked up at my mom, she had a serious look in her eye. Almost as if she would kill someone... it scared me.

"Y-Yeah I promise." I crossed my fingers slightly, I can't tell her anyway. I just...

...can't...

when we arrived at that run down hell hole they call a school I get out. As soon as I do, gasps and murmurs fill the courtyard. I used to care, but now I just don't.

"WHAT?!? YOU GOT SOMETHING TO SAY TO ME!?!" I shout, not really care what the bullies will do to me later, It can't be any worse. I probably won't see them much anymore. I would have to be one special victim for them to do that. 

"Be careful Izuku..." Mom says as she gets out of the car. "I'll be finalizing the school transfer papers." She hands me and box for my stuff. "It might take me awhile."  and with that she hugs me and walks towards the principals office. 

I sigh and walk into the school. More murmurs follow.

'Is that Izuku...?'

'look at his arms...'

'so what teachers said is really true...'

'that wimp really did try and kill himself.'

'Pathetic Izuku'

'Useless Izuku' 

'He should have died'

'what a waste of life'

I slammed my fist against a locker creating a loud 'bang' noise. Everyone was silent. My hand Hurt like hell afterward but I ignored it.

"Can you all just shut the FUCK up!??! I'm kinda tired of your BS!!" I yell, I was really pissed. these bullies have been ruining my life for WAY to long. But not anymore, I'm done being bullied.

"oh, does Izuku actually have some balls for once?" One of my bullies taunted. I just rolled my eyes and gave him a glare full of my hate and anger, almost like I would kill him if he didn't leave me alone. The bullies eyes widened a bit, and he stepped back a bit.

"Oh, and do you finally have a brain for once?" I said under my breath, so no one could hear me. I continued walking to my locker. I left the group of students gathering there in pure shock and fear. I chuckled a little under my breath, as I looked back and saw there terrified expressions. 

when I got to my locker I spotted a blonde and angry Pomeranian around the corner. I rolled my eyes again. "I can not deal with this right now." I muttered under my breath. I just decided to ignore him and get my stuff. but when I got to my locker I was shoved up against it.

"Why'd you do it...?" Bakugo said in a weak voice. Almost like he feels guilty. HA! that's a funny thought, he's just acting to hurt me again. not gonna happen.

"Oh? What did I do this time?" I say.

"YOU NOW WHAT I'M FUCKING TALKING ABOUT DEKUUUU!!!" 

"Would you shut up, with all the noise you're making I wouldn't be surprised if a teacher came over. Not that would care. would you just put me down now." I say as less of a question than a command. I slap his hand off my shirt, and fall gracefully onto the ground.

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!?!" Bakugo yelled, but it didn't seem angry... almost... guilty...? But still... mad? I think?

"you tried to kill yourself... and... and... it's probably my fault..." Is Bakugo... actually guilty...?

I mentally slap myself for being stupid and let a scowl fall onto my face.

"Stop pretending." I say, "I'm not falling for this BS."

"W-What...?" Bakugo looked genuinely shocked, he looked like he was trying to formulate words "I'm not pretendin-" I cut him off, I was done with this asshole confusing me.

"shut up, haven't you hurt me enough?"

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Hey~ Hey~

IT'S ME!! Hope you enjoyed that, sorry it's been taking foreverrrrrr for these chapters to come out. I have been dealing with some... personal stuff IRL. And I'm running out of ideas. I came up with some thought with some help of one of my friends. 

I'm going to be introducing one of my favorite characters next chapter. Be I'm not telling~~

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