Please... make it stop... it hurts... | Depressed Deku AU

Chapter sixteen

Izuku's POV

"Who are you?" I say, looking around to see who just spoke.

'It' Chuckles slightly before speaking. "why, my dear Izuku, I am you."

"What?" I felt a wave of drowsiness come over me and my eyes slam shut. My body falling limp to the ground, unconscious.

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I was in a black room, I looked around the unfamiliar area. I see a small boy about my size in front of me. His back was to me and He had a teal hoodie on, the hood was pulled over his head in a way that I couldn't see his hair nor his face.

The room was empty, besides me and the stranger on the other side of the room, then something clicked.

"A-Are you the person who talked to me?" I call out to the boy. 

No response

All the uncertainty in this situation was really starting to annoy me...

then the boy made his first noise.It started as a low chuckle, then became an insane laughter that echoed in the empty room. It creeped me out.

The boy ceased his laughter after what seemed like a few minutes but I have no way of telling. He turned around, pulling down his hood and smirking at me. He had a freckled face and ruby red eyes, his hair was a greenish-black color.

'no... you can't be...' My eyes widened as realization dawned on me.

"Oh yes I can, Well Izuku Midoriya? Do I look familiar?" He said and spread his arms out wide, he's smirk growing wider as he noticed my realization.

"Y-Your me..." I studded out, I could barely speak. How can he be me?

"No shit Sherlock. Forget being a hero, be a detective. With your raw skill it should be easy." he said sarcastically as he rolled his eyes. "Now tell me, what made you think I was you? was it the hair, face, or body?" He added with a grin

"B-But how...?" I ignored his comments and went straight to the point, trying to keep my composure.

"Ya know, it took for-fucking-ever for you to snap. I've been waiting to goddamn long for my liking. You know how boring it is in here waiting for you to snap? I'll tell you right now it's no fun." He blatantly ignored my question.

"How are you me?" I restated. I regained a little more of my confidence and less stuttering.

"good, How are you doing?" He said with a smirk. I was getting frustrated at this me...

"Can you answer my questions please!?" I say with a raised voice, trying to keep my rage under control.

"What was the question again?" He smirked trying to look like he can't remember.

"How are you me?!" I yelled this time.

"I don't know," he said as he shrugged his shoulders.

"WELL YOU KINDA HAVE TO KNOW IN THIS SITUATION!" I yell.

"Well, I see little Izuku finally took some of my advice." I was confused by this.

"What do you mean by advice? You never gave me any advice." I say, the other me just smirked more.

"You don't remember?" I shook my head. "it was back when your little 'friend' Bakubitch just started bullying you, I told you to fight back and stand up for yourself. But, alas you never took my advice." He said.

"I don't remembe-"

"Of course you don't have any conscious memory of it, I tried to manipulate your mind into doing it. But seeing where we are today it never worked." He let out an exasperated sigh.

"Huh-"

"Shut up and listen to my tale of woes, I've been with you ever since you were born, I just never had enough power to do anything. your power over your mind was so strong back then, but as of recently your mind has begun to slowly start to weaken. And due to those recent changes it has been easier to subtly change and alter your decisions and behavioral patterns."

Then it all came together. everything that I have been doing for the past few weeks began to make sense. My outbursts and my random feelings of anger were all caused by him...But I had to be sure.

"So... my recent outbursts and getting angry at people was you...?" He grinned.

"Sharp one aren't you?" My suspicions were confirmed, now my only question is; how long he was controlling me for and how much of an impact he had on my life.

"I've been able to make minor changes to your thought process but only barely, like an idea that popped into your head." his says, almost as if he knew what I was thinking.

"How did you..." He points to his head

"I can read your thoughts almost like they are my own. It's actually quite distracting to hear your thoughts well I'm talking, ya know?" He said playing with his green hair with his fingers. "I'm a part of your mind, of course I know what you're thinking."

"why me..?" I say, I am completely unsure of how much the person I am today is due to him or me...

'I feel so confused... I'm I me or am I him?' I think.

"Seeing as I am you, that question is badly phrased. But to answer your first question, I don't know. You think I want to be locked in this black hole? Trust me bro, I really don't. And I'm practically incapacitated every time I make you do anything. It's just recently your mind weakened, as I said before, so when I gave you bad thoughts before I would usually pass out or feel like shit. Not fun doing this I'll tell ya right now."

"Do other people have to go through this too?" I ask.

"I think everyone has something like me, even if it's faint. " He paused for a second "That's mere speculation though."

"hm..." I was really shocked and unsure... "do you use me a lot?"

"Not as much as you would think, only when I find it necessary or something annoys me." he thinks for a moment. "Like when bakubitch was bullying you, I gave you ideas to stand up for yourself. You never gave into the thought though."

I couldn't help but laugh at the name he called Bakugo.

"Are you sure you're me?" I say as I giggle a bit.

"oh shut up." He said and laughed along with me. Then I realized what I was doing and stopped.

'HOW COULD I LOSE MY COMPOSURE LIKE THAT!? He just makes me feel like i'm talking with a sibling..'

"I'm a part of you, you're talking to yourself. I'm not your brother, or any relative for that matter." He adds, I smile slightly. "Honestly, how did we end up so different..." He sighed and held his head up with his hand.

"Haha, one wonders other me." I laugh again without even realizing it, and when I did realize I slapped Myself.

"Hey now, stop it with the self harm, I have enough scars already." He said and pulled up his sleeves on his hoodie, His arms were filled with scars. I gasp.

Knife marks, my knife marks.

"Ya, Ya, I get your scars too. seeing as this is your body. It's really uncomfortable finding new scars every day at random times." He says

"H-How?" I begin backing away like a cornered animal.

"I love that expression Izuku, priceless. Oh also might be time to wake up. Don't want to keep Ochako waiting." He grins and snaps his fingers.

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I shoot up into a sitting position, I'm in an alleyway. I quickly stand up and check the time.

'4:30... OH NO I'M LATE!!' I ran out of the alley and rushed to the park. one thought in particular floated around my mind.

'was that all real?'

Little did I know that, that question is going to be answered very soon