A Million Dreams :: verkwan

MD :: 34

*seungkwan*

i held my head low while playing the water on the pail waiting for the washing machine to finish working. hansol was waiting too, and he was playing the water on the hose. we are done washing all the shorts and pants, and to tell you, it took us an hour washing those. geez. hansol keeps asking me how to do those.

we are silent while waiting. we already talked about something, even in the universe, galaxies and all. we dont have any topics to talk about even though i wanted to asked him more about himself. but it seems like its all that he could show to me, but its fine, at least we could spend so much time together. . before he leave.

"boo?"

i hummed in response without darting him a single glance. i was busy playing the water using my hand.

"its okay if i ask if. ." my brows furrowed waiting for his questions. "where's your father?"

i stopped playing the water as i stared still on my reflection. the water was really clear that i could see myself there. i stared at it not wanting to answer hansol's question. im trying so hard to not to talk about it even though i know that he wanted to ask that, and so he did.

it was too obvious already. . i just dont want to talk about it.

"its okay if yoㅡ"

"on the other households." i laughed at how cingre it may sound. but that was true, that was the real deal, that was the reason why he wasnt here with us anymore. i dont really wanna talk about it, my noonas and my mom's crying face when they talked about those ricochet in my head.

it was too devastating to see, i had to force myself to forget those.

"other households?"

i raised my gaze to hansol, meeting his deep brown eyes. i let out a small smile still not wanting to talk about the topic. i hope he could understand what my smile means.

"i-im sorry for asking. i shouldnt asked." i stilled on my spot when he flexed his right hand and those reached at my hair as he stroke it like he was wiping some dust off on my hair.

i was still staring at him while doing those. my heart beats beating so fast again, and my system reacts as if there are hungry dragons inside. i looked down and stared at my reflection again. i bit my lower lip as a memory of the past that i wanted to forget flushed through my head.

the way my noonas plead our father to stay, how my mom tried to fix her heart, and how my dad left our house. our home. and the way i felt that this house could never be as empty as what it is right now.

"boㅡ"

"he left. . he left us. its was just recently, its been like months ago only. i wasnt here when he left noona and mum, but i felt how hard it is for the three of them." i saw my tears fall down on the water, i know hansol saw it. this was the first time i cried in front of people. i always cried by my own. i was fond of hiding my weaknesses, hansol was really that special. "mum told me that he has somebody else now, but i dont know why they arent filling an annulment yet. mum doesnt deserve a guy like him. she deserves more, and she deserves so much better than this."