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𝕿𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖌𝖍𝖙𝖋𝖚𝖑

Chapter ten: Thoughtful

Wtf? Sir Jeon?

Stepping down from the table I paid respect since he was my teacher and he smiled warmly. I gave him a confused look and he walked past me and sat on the table I previously sat on.

"Y/N. I haven't known you for that long but why do I always see you...alone?"

"I'm sorry I don't understand..." I asked back, totally confused

"What I mean is, it's good for a person to be independent but it feels nice when you have someone to rely on, even just a bit." He tried to explain.

"I don't want to." I gave a short stern reply already had enough of today.

"But what is the reason?" He spoke slowly making me wonder if there was just one reason.

This made me think, deep. About how many times I tried to find someone who would love me, want me and accept me........not leave me. All the things I had to go through because of other people and their mistakes. Why should I suffer because of them? I wasn't born to fix their problems......

.....why WAS I born?!

I trailed off in my own thoughts and started to zone out, standing on the concrete floor until he said something, so true making my eyes watery.

"You don't talk to many people. Perhaps you don't like them, don't trust them?" he paused and I just stared at him.

".........You try to hide behind your armour like right now you are hiding your tears." He looked at me and motioned for me to come to him and I sat next to him on the table as he asked.

Palms getting sweaty now, my tears threatened to fall and I clenched my fists tightly trying to avoid any scene caused by me in front of him. I didn't dare look up at him once but just shut my eyes in grief. I was in a vulnerable state and felt embarrassed. I had the reputation of a strong and brave warrior, and here it's flying out the window.

What would he be thinking of me right now?

"I don't have anyone to share things with, except my shadow." I looked down to where my shadow was being cast due to the light bulb behind me in the storeroom.

"But even your own shadow leaves you when it's dark." My voice almost a whisper.

"When things get out of hands, a friend is someone who helps you. You were given friends to share your feelings with, happy or sad. Talking to someone helps handle stress and believe me, it will make you stronger.."

Is he pitying me...?

"You shouldn't shut yourself from people. Look around yourself. There are many people who would love to talk to you."

"But they don't? Because I'm cold! And they are the reason why I'm like this."

What does he want from me? Why is he hereee to give me life a lesson!?

I could almost feel my tears slip out and I had zero strength left in me but the frustration was pulsating in every part of my body making me feel pocked.

"You are surrounded by so many other people too. People are always connected with other people. If you just reach out, you will find them there. Once a person realizes it's lonely being alone, they can grow to be kind." He went ahead and said long lengths about friendship and love between people, making me emotional.