imagines ~ cb

fake

<im in my feelings again aha>

why do i always settle for less. why does my mind always play these trick on me? it always tells me that i can change then but i know i cant but i still stay with them. why?

"WHY!" i screamed at the top of my lungs.

i didn't care if any on my neighbours heard me. they wouldn't care. nobody cares about me. im just a mess and a screw up that had somehow managed to go 17 years of her life without ending it. i just wish i had the balls to do it.

i walked into my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. wow. i look like trash. well, i always do so that doesn't make a difference. red bloodshot eyes. hair like a birds nest. clothes covered in coffee stains and my cheeks stained with tears.

i was brought out of my thoughts by the sound of someone knocking at the door. i tried to clean myself up the best i could but nothing changed. i was still the piece of shit that i was born as and always will.

i sluggishly walked over to the door not bothering to look through the peep hole. it was probably someone getting the wrong address. like anyone would want to come visit this. like, look a me! i haven't taken a shower in a week and wore the same clothes day in day out.

COLBYS POV
i hated to see and hear her this way. i was in my apartment working on some stuff when i heard her scream.

"WHY!"

it was full of emotion. when she was dragging out the y, i could hear at the end her voice breaking. it breaks my heart to see her go through this.

she feels as though she finds the right person for her but they end up playing her. i wish we could be together. i have loved her the second i saw her in that bus shelter. a beautiful blonde with glowing green eyes.

i got up off my desk chair and headed my way over to her apartment. i have it a light knock and waited for her to answer. sometimes she answers in a couple seconds and other times it can take a while for her to answer the door.

once i heard the sound of the key going in the key hole, i put my phone in my pocket and watch the door slowly open. my heart dropped out of my chest.

her hair was a mess and it looked as though she hadn't got a shower in a long ass time. she must be really going through it.

"y/n" i said looking at her eyes. they were full of hurt.
"colby? if i knew you were coming over i would have cleaned" she said panicked.
"hey i dont care what you it's your apartment looks like. i came over to see if you were ok" i told her.
"me? yeah im good why would you think that?" she said trying to avoid the question.
"look, i heard you scream and i wanted to know if my best friend was ok" i said bending down to her level. she was to tiny i could hold her in the palm of my hand.
"well, no im not" i saw a tear escape her eye. i didn't waist a seconds to pull her into me and neither did she. her arms went around my neck and she held on for dear life.

i walked her into her apartment and sat down on her sofa. i am not too sure how long we were there but we were there until she had let out each and every tear.

Y/N POV
i pulled away from him and sat down on his lap. he was always there for me. i never really understood why though. people have told me that he has feelings for me but i would rather believe it when i see it ya know?

he wiped the tears away from my cheeks and asked me a question i never thought he would ask me.

"please tell me what has been going on in that little mind of yours. i hate seeing you this way" i could see he was visibly upset by me being the way i am.

"as you know, my first relationship didn't go as well as i though it would. him cheating and blaming it all on me. my 'friends' believing him over me and leaving me. my patented abandoning me and making me fight for my own. i developed depression not long after that and tried to end it a couple times but never had the balls to do it. some other boys came along and left. being led on and the other just wanting me for my body. i don't understand why this is happening to me!" i couldn't hold myself together anymore. i finally broke and he was the one to bring down my walls i built up so heigh.

"im so sorry you had to go through all that alone. go and take a shower and i will clean up around here and we will go and have a lovely meal together" he told me.
"you dont have to do all that for me" i said looking in his eyes. they seamed ... genuine.
"don't worry about me. you are my main priority right now" he said rubbing his hands on my sides.

COLBYS POV
i had finally convinced her to go and take a shower and i will clean up the rest. i didn't care what her place looked like. i want to help her get better and take her mind off what has gone on in the past. like they say, you cant change a persons past but you can change their future.

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