New but maybe not so New

Chapter 34 |✔

I knew it was wrong. He was my colleague, my friend. But as I pulled him close again, his soft lips pressed against mine in a shy, but then passionate manner, it felt so right.
Like our lips were made for each other.

Every second of that kiss made me want a second more.
I wanted to be even closer to him but not an inch parted us, his arms now tight around my waist.

His hand movements seemed to leave sensational trails over my whole body and I couldn't pull away for more than one breath before missing his lips on mine and linking them together again.

My stomach fluttered and it was almost a ticklish feeling, but I didn't have to laugh.
I needed more.
Unlike from tickling, I didn't want him to stop.
Ever.

But, as unfair as life was, everything had to end eventually and when we heard the door to the club open, we pulled away from each other as fast as we could, my eyes meeting the two colliding bodies of Morgan and Tamara.

The broad shoulders of the African American were facing me while they were kissing, Tammy's eyes focusing on me after a second.
She pulled away, Derek's hands still around her waist, and looked Spencer and I up and down suspiciously.
"What were you doing out here?"

Derek turned around shortly after and grinned from ear to ear.
"That blonde guy wasn't as fine as you thought?"

I cleared my throat as Spencer fiddled with his hands, stuttering unintelligible.
"We, ehm, we were just eh- talking. A-About one of his magic tricks, right Spencer?"

I looked at him and his eyes found mine, a slight blush creeping onto his cheeks and I was happy that the streetlamp wasn't turned in his direction. "Y-Yeah, of course. I was about to explain that the statistic of-."

"Know what, pretty boy? I don't even wanna know. Just get pretty girl over there safe home. We need her back in one piece if she wants to join the next case tomorrow."
He winked and now even my cheeks were flushed, and I swallowed, hoping Spencer would answer.

He blinked a few times, clearing his throat and nodding.
"O-Of course, I would never let a woman walk home alone. There are too man statistics that show that over 60 percent of-."

Morgan held up his hand.
"Just bring her home, man."

Tammy winked at me as well, knowing perfectly well what had just happened before Derek turned his attention back toward her, whispering something in her ear, which made her giggle, and disappearing in the streets of Quantico.

I let out a deep breath I didn't realise I had been holding in, before brushing a piece of hair behind my ear and laughing.
"Wow, well that was close."

Spencer laughed as well, shoving his hands in his pant pockets awkwardly.
"Yeah, it was."

We both stood there in silence, not daring to look at the other person.
I knew how much we wanted each other; The sexual tension was almost unbearable, but I decided to break it, knowing -even without being sober- that we had to keep it professional.

"I don't-. I'm not sure if we should- You know, do this."
I cringed at my own words and I could have killed myself for saying that because it was the exact opposite of what I wanted, but after those months where I had worked with the team, I knew that I didn't want to leave.

"We can't-." I swallowed.
"It's not allowed to have any kind of sexual or inappropriate relationship between colleagues and I don't want to mess this up. I love what we have, our fri-friendship, b-but I want to stay and I don't wanna risk to-."

He took a step forward. "You want to stay?"

I closed my eyes, a bit irritated by his change of subject, but nodding and smiling back.
"Yeah, I've already talked to my sister and her doctors and they all said it was fine and that she would be doing great. Even my secretary was happy for me."

He opened his mouth then closed it again, before he pulled me closer and hugged me happily. I was a bit taken aback but closed my eyes as his smell filled my nostrils and his body was close to mine again.
I never wanted him to let go of me.
I wanted to stay in this moment forever.

"I'm so happy for you. And your sister. And for the team. You'll do a great job, as always."

I smiled and raised an eyebrow.
"The team, huh?"

He chuckled and pressed me even closer.
"Yeah, the team, which includes me, of course."

I shook my head and couldn't hide my bright smile as we parted.
"I'm happy too."

He smiled, his adorable dimples showing, before he brushed a piece of hair behind his ear. "And about the other thing... I'm sorry, I should have never done that. It's completely understandable and I don't want to risk my job either."

I smiled.
But still, something inside me told me that it was wrong. It sounded so much like he didn't want it. But I wanted it.
My heart sank.

I initiated it, now I had to live with the consequences for my actions and words, even if that meant hiding my feelings and getting hurt. "Okay, great. Ehm, well then, I think I'm gonna go home now."

I turned around and wanted to open the door, but Spencer's hand grabbed the door handle before I could even outstretch my own, opening the door and smiling down at me.
"I meant what I said to Morgan. I won't let you walk home alone. A 2,000-person national survey in the USA found that 65% of all women had experienced street harassment. Among all women, 23% had been sexually touched, 20% had been followed, and 9% had been forced to do something sexual. It's only logical to not let anyone walk alone, especially at night."

I nodded interested as we made our way through the club, Spencer shouting over the loud music and the cheering of people.

"And what about men? Aren't they just as endangered as women?"
I grabbed my jacket when we arrived at the table, JJ and Garcia still sitting there.

"You already leaving, angel face?" Garcia asked and threw her arms around me, smiling.

"Yeah, I'm pretty tired, but next time, we gonna dance together. Okay?"

She nodded happily and sat back down again. "Great. You're coming too, Genius."
She pointed her finger toward Spencer and he shrugged while I hugged JJ.

"If you're ever lonely, call me and I have the perfect match for you." I whispered in the blonde's ear and she looked at me strangely, before we said our goodbyes and drove to my apartment with a cab, Spencer stating his facts as usual and me listening to every word he said, sometimes even too eager to get his lips to stop moving.

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Right now I'm at that point where I'd sacrifice myself for them

They're literally perfect, I love em so much and they own my heart.

That's it, all I have to say.

Oh and this gif💀