Fucked up: Tiktok boys bxb

Eighteen

*Time skip to the end of May (one week til tour)*

"JADEN! JADEN! JAY PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR!" Bryce yelled as he banged on the door. "I can't do it anymore Bryce!" I yelled back looking at my medicine laid out in the counter. "Please! Jaden don't do it! You mean so much to me and the boys. Don't do this to us." Bryce said trying to bargain with me. I looked in the mirror at myself disgusted with what I saw. The split eyebrow and lip, the black eye, the blood flowing from my nose. The ache of my entire body almost made it easy. I looked down at my hands and immediately sent my fist into the mirror in front of me. "JADEN! Please just let me in! Talk to me please!" He yelled from the other side of the door.

*An hour earlier*
I just walked out of a meeting I had been at and was texting the boys about meeting up for lunch at a restaurant two blocks away. I decided to walk there since I had been sitting for a really long time. It felt nice out and I wore jeans with a PAU crop top so I enjoyed being out there.  I'm supposed to be meeting Bryce and Kio's friend Griffin too so i'm excited, I feel good for the fist time in the past few weeks. I was halfway down the first block. "Hey!" Someone yelled from nearby and I looked around seeing a guy with his window down staring at me. "Was that you?" I asked not wanting to ignore him and be rude. "Yeah, what the fuck are you wearing?" The guy in the backseat asked as they pulled up next to me. "Uh.. a crop top and jeans?" I responded. "A fucking crop top? And you have your nails painted?" The guy in the passenger seat asked with a disgusted look on his face. I decided to just not say anything and walk away. "Yo faggot, we weren't done talking to you!" The driver yelled. "I was done though!" I yelled back and pulled out my phone to call Bryce then he revved his engine.

He starting driving toward me. There was an alley next to me so without thinking I dropped my phone and bolted down it. They were gaining on me still in the truck and I looked back running into a trashcan making me fall. They stopped and five guys flooded out of the truck. I stood and backed up but hit a wall realizing the alley way was a dead end. They walked up surrounding me. "We said we weren't done talking, fag." He said grabbing hold of my face making me look at him. "Okay I-i'm sorry, please just let me go. I have people i'm meeting for lunch at saddle ranch and I wouldn't want to worry them." I said gulping dryly.

"In that case we will make it quick." He said grabbing me and pushing me into the group of guys. One punched me and I fell back into one of the other guys who turned me around and punched me. It went on for a few minutes until I finally fell the ground and they all started kicking me and yelling hateful words at me. I tried to just stay quiet in hopes playing dead would help. It didn't. This kept going on for another few minutes before one of them picked me up and got me in the truck. I guess the remembered me saying I was eating at Saddle Ranch cause they stopped there and threw me out onto the sidewalk right next to the patio. I laid there and turned to the side and saw Bryce running toward me.

*Back to current time*
"I'm done with constantly being beaten and violated for my sexuality! I can't be me anymore! I lost the loves of my life and I have to pretend i'm okay!" I yelled back to Bryce.

*A few weeks ago*
"Please don't, Jaden." Anthony said grabbing my hand. "I have to do it, I'm so sorry." I said letting tears fall down my face. "But we love you, we love you so much baby." Josh said trying to convince me to stay. "I know you love me baby." I said putting my hand on his cheek. "But you aren't in love with me. Not the way you two love each other. So i'm not mad because in the end I knew you two belonged together so i'm just glad I was able to help y'all back together." The both looked into my eyes as I said that. "If you want me to find somewhere else to live, I will." I said looking down. "No, you aren't going to be homeless again." Anthony said sadly. "But I think you should move into the guest room."

*Back to current*
Bryce had broken into the bathroom and saw the empty pill bottles. He said, "I'm so sorry about this." With that he forced me to drink water then he pushed his fingers down my throat making me throw up a few times until I couldn't throw anything else up. Once they were out of my system completely Bryce pulled me into his chest. "WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT! I WANTED TO DIE! LET ME DIE PLEASE! PLEASE I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! FUCK!" I sobbed as I yelled at Bryce. I started breathing rapidly and the room started spinning. "Jay I need you to breathe for me, come on in through your nose out through your mouth." He said while rubbing my back.