Fucked up: Tiktok boys bxb

Thirty

Jaden's POV
I've gotten more experienced with the fentanyl so now I smear the smallest bit on my pinky then take it. When i do that I can move just very slowly. I have been sticking with the pills for daily stuff then I just take the fentanyl to sleep. Right now I'm sitting in the living room with the boys watching a movie. I just came downstairs after sobbing uncontrollably in the shower and slashing up my thighs. I sat by myself not wanting to be next to anyone. Half way through the movie I heard a knock on the door and heard Bryce yell, "Come in!" I didn't realize we were having people over so I was in a sweatshirt and a pair of shorts but I don't really care if I look stylish, it's 11 pm.

I looked up when I heard the approaching foot steps stop. I made eye contact with Blake then immediately looked away. No matter how many drugs I take I will never feel comfortable around him. Bryce broke out the white claws since the two boys were here, I guess we aren't watching the movie anymore. The pills were wearing off so I went to the kitchen and got a bottle of vodka out from the cabinet. My phone buzzed as I sat up on the counter and I looked down seeing a message from Blake. If you say anything to them then I will tell them about where you worked last year. I'd be surprised if they didn't kick you out for that.

How does he know? I looked up at him and he smirked, I looked back down and shoved my phone in my pocket before opening up the bottle and chugging about a fourth of it. As long as I stay downstairs and around the boys I think I'm safe. The boys were having a conversation about hot spots. "Yeah some people are really sensitive to their hot spots." Bryce said walking to the living room. "Yeah Jaden is really sensitive to his hot spots." Josh said meaning for only Anthony to hear but is too drunk to control how loud he is.  I pulled my hood up and downed more vodka as I walked to Bryce.  "Blake and Noah are moving in soon, so you gotta stop being afraid of Blake at some point he isn't going to hurt you." Bryce said as Blake smirked at me.

He decided to go live and Blake walked right in front of me to the camera. I sat on the counter trying to stay back and watched Blake start whispering something in Josh's ear. Josh laughed then looked over and me with a slight smile. Blake started talking to the live and said, "Y'all know what a hotspot is?" When he said that Josh laughed again and walked more over toward me. I could smell the alcohol on him from a full five feet away, he was really drunk. We touched for a second but i backed away uncomfortably scooting back on the counter. They know not to touch me if they've been drinking, it fucks with my ptsd.

Josh put a hand on my leg and leaned forward whispering in my ear, "Come on baby boy. Daddy is going to fuck you so good." I had a sick feeling in my stomach as I shook my head, he moved his hand up my inner thigh and even though I didn't like it I involuntarily let out a moan. This happened right in front of the live and Blake said, "Jaden always kind of has been the sway slut." I felt an uncomfortable rush of embarrassment run through me as I held my arms. I jumped off the counter and walked away from Josh, needing space from him.

As I walked through I brushed Blake and he said loudly, "Jaden, cut it out. Just cause you fucked all of them doesn't mean you don't need consent to touch me like that." I felt something inside of me reach the breaking point as I snapped back and said through a broken voice, "What do you know about consent, you bastard?!" A blush filled my face as I realized what I just said so I walked fast away from the situation.

A few hours after I had gotten up to my room my door opened and Blake walked in. "My silence will come at a price." He smiled widely letting me know he had no regrets. Tears pricked my eyes as I realized what he meant. Of course. I can't have a solid, happy life. Something always has to come and wreck it.

Time skip - One week

Blake and Noah have lived here for a week now and it has been absolute hell. He waits until no one is looking. Finds ways to isolate me from them... Comes into my room in the middle of the night. It is currently 3:23am and I heard the door creep open, the locks were taken off our doors a few weeks ago because we would lock our doors and sleep through alarms.