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Twenty-Nine

Bryce's POV
Just when Jaden was doing the best he's ever been he shut down. He was eating when no one was watching, was starting to just randomly start a conversation without anyone talking first, and he was doing really well with his ptsd. His night terrors had stopped and he was just overall in a good place. He hasn't gotten out of his bed. He isn't sleeping, or eating, or talking. He won't take his medication anymore, he just spits it out. His night terrors came back and happen any time he actually does sleep. I got up to go check on him when I woke up, it's been a week but I still check on him a lot. I opened the door and he wasn't in his bed. I went and looked in the bathroom, he wasn't there either. I looked around the house then saw his keys were gone. Why would he leave without telling anyone?

Jaden's POV
God why am I back here. I parked my car and hesitantly made my way down the sadly familiar alleyway until I reached the dark heavy door. I knocked on the door then backed up for the door to open. A man I haven't seen before opened it and said, "Who are you and what do you want?" I didn't meet his eyes when I replied, "I'm Jaden, me and Troy used to work together." The man nodded then made room for me to walk in. The music was overwhelmingly loud and there were people all over the place.

I walked down the purple hallway until I reached the finally door and knocked again. "What!?" Troy yelled from the other side of the door. "Troy, man it's me." I yelled back. The door whipped open and I was immediately pulled into a hug which I flinched at but after a few seconds I accepted it. He let go then motioned for me to sit down. We both sat and he looked at me for a second before grabbing my face and yelling, "WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOU! YOU JUST FUCKING DISAPPEARED! I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD YOU BASTARD!" I flinched back and put my head down. He put his hands back on either side of my face and looked at me with tears in his eyes. "Oh God Jaden, what happened to you?" He said choked up.

I bit my lip remember how I just left without saying anything. "I'm so sorry Troy. I had to leave. I was so scared and I was hurt-." I started before he cut me off. "Who hurt you? What happened?" He asked hurriedly. "I- uh, a couple of my customers followed me out of the club and waited until I got high and attacked me in the alley." I answered quietly. "Why didn't you find me?" He asked sadly. "We had just had that fight and I thought you hated me. I thought I was on my own." I answered not making eye contact with him. "You think I would hate you because one of my regulars decided to switch to you? Jay it's a club, there are plenty of guys. It wasn't that big of a deal." He said sadly. "I'm sorry. I never would have just left like that if I didn't have a reason." I responded looking up at him.

"Okay, now that we got that out of the way, what's up?" He asked letting go of my face and leaning back. "I need something." I replied quietly. "What kind of something." He asked leaning up a little. "I need something to numb me, I can't feel anymore. I can't take it. I don't want to die but if I keep having to feel, I'm going to kill myself. Troy I really don't want to lose this battle. I've been fighting my whole life, I can't handle my emotions anymore." I said swallowing the lump in my throat. "Shit. Jaden are you sure?" He asked now having both of us feel the crushing weight of this conversation. I nodded and he looked at me for a second before getting up and going to the closet. He came back with a bottle of pills and one with liquid in it. "That's Vicodin, around here they call it 'Off' because it turns everything off." He said hesitantly handing me the bottle of pills. He held up the other bottle and said, "This is fentanyl. This is serious stuff that you only take when you can lay in bed for 12 hours and not have to do anything. One drop of this stuff and you will be both emotionally numb and almost completely physically immobile for at least two hours. So please be careful with it." I took the bottle from him and shoved it in my pocket.

I held out money but he pushed my hand back. "I'm not taking your money." He said sitting back down. "I'm doing a lot better money wise. Just take it, I want you to be able to get out of here." I replied to his generosity. He looked at the money for a second then to me then back to the money before grabbing it. Jaden stayed with Troy for the rest of the day catching up but Jaden realized he should go home around 8:30pm. "I'm gonna come see you more often okay?" I asked and he nodded before saying, "Yeah you better. Plus thats only gonna last you a week or so." I nodded before walking out. I got back to my car and got one of the pills out in my hand. I stared at it for a bit before taking it. I drank a bottle of water before driving back to Sway.