upset | edward cullen

four

Better to be without logic than without feeling.

CHARLOTTE BRONTË

Weeks passed and Edward and me became friends. Texting sometimes during class, after school, and sometimes not at all. It didn't matter though, it was a relaxed friendship and our conversation flowed easily and perfectly. Reina still seemed suspicious of this "friendship." It didn't bother me, I knew I was as ready for a serious relationship as any other high schooler so I didn't really want to rush into anything. However, I would be a liar if I said I didn't feel the pull of attraction.

But then it was sunny for a couple days and I didn't speak to him at all, "the Cullens go camping and don't come back until it's raining, they're very outdoorsy," Anthony told me in psych when I didn't see Edward in english. I didn't text, didn't want to seem desperate and besides he wouldn't respond if he was camping.

So for four days I didn't talk to Edward Cullen and it was annoyingly annoying. I was snappy and moody and it was dreadful. I was mostly annoyed at myself for becoming affected by his absence. Maybe we texted more than I liked to admit and maybe it made me happier than I liked to admit.

It had only been a month since we moved to Forks and I was already falling for a boy my father would definitely hate. Not to mention he was very white and not muslim, already a recipe for disaster. I had to rationalize these emotions, I couldn't be falling for him.

Sunday night was spent with me telling myself I just miss him because I'm used to texting him daily that's all it is, it's habit.

Only for me to dream about Edward Cullen that night.

The dream was something along the lines of him reading a passage from A Midsummer's Night Dream and me combing my fingers through his brown hair making it even messier.  I woke up and became annoyed again, throwing on a hoodie some skinny jeans and a warm long coat, not my best look but it was what the world deserved. Unfortunately the forecast for today was also sunny. I flipped off the sun as I got out of my prius at the school parking lot.

"Woah aren't you a ray of sunshine this morning." Anthony teased, as usual in the spot next to mine. I proceeded to flip him off and smile.

I didn't pretend to be in a good mood and Reina very quickly teased that it's because Edward wasn't here and I quipped back that I had cramps and would not hesitate to throw down if she teased me again. It kept her quiet. Scott was extra nice to me after that.

I was being a bitch and Anthony finally asked me what was really happening as we walked to class. "Okay fine I think I might miss Edward." Anthony gasped and then covered his mouth, he failed miserably at hiding his smile.

"You're so brave thank you for sharing your story." I couldn't help but laugh as I lightly smacked his arm in response to his teasing. "No but really that's cute I'm like you're number one shipper."

"Please. Stop. I will crawl into a hole and die."

"Omg not without Edward." He winked and I just turned around and walked in the opposite direction as him which made him squawk with laughter and chase after me. "Okay okay I'll stop."

"Good and you can't repeat this to anyone okay if it gets around to him somehow I will move to Canada." I threatened and he pinky promised.

I got through bio in loneliness trying not to look to sad about the absence of my lab partner. I just had to get through gym and luckily the clouds were coming back in, everyone else in Washington would be groaning but to me they were a welcome sight. We were playing basketball today in gym, admittedly the sport I was the worst at.