upset | edward cullen

sixteen

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.

ARISTOTLE

My mother wouldn't let me stay past dinner but I desperately wanted to talk to Edward more. We would have to settle with talking at school. My mother agreed to let me go to their place after school tomorrow, saying she would rather I be with Esme than home alone. My mom was quite smitten by the Cullens and I didn't know if it was the "dazzling," or just how lovable Esme was.

She drove me to school and hugged me extra hard before watching me walk inside, Edward was also watching me walk inside waiting for her to drive off before coming to my side.

Anthony and Tori were in front of me as I tore my eyes away from and they were practically crying as they asked how I was. News had gotten around yesterday after the local news station reported it and I was bombarded with texts and calls, I loved them for caring and I know they did care but I felt sick to my stomach thinking about that day all over again. My mother had insisted I skip school, it might be too much for me she said, I didn't want her to be right, didn't want her to know just how sick and anxious I felt.

"Uhm guys I don't want to talk about it," they turned ghastly and rushed out apologies and their sympathy washed over and I felt like crying. Instead I opted for putting my arms around their shoulders and pulling all inside before classes started. Looking over my shoulder, I saw my mother driving away and Edward looking at me with a promise of something in his eyes. I would have to wait and see what exactly it was.

All the fussing had left me with no time to talk to Edward before class. I pulled out my phone as I took my seat next to Tori in Math.

Me
Sorry for not saying hi to you
my mom's like a hawk lately

Edward
I understand, I would be too
We'll talk next class period.

Then I got another text, surprisingly from Alice

Alice
hey girlie, we're all here for you okay? we will keep you safe no matter what

Me
thank you alice it's just, it's like still feel then touching me and being blindfolded and trapped

Alice
i understand, i was trapped like that once just give yourself time and remember everything you feel is valid you're a survivor, you SURVIVED and you're safe now

The class bell rang and I wanted to cry again, I wanted to talk to Alice more and ask her what she was talking about but she made me feel better. I just had to take it one step at a time which would be difficult for me since I felt like I needed to be perfect all the time for everyone.

I had been pretending all my life but when I came to Forks I was free, I just needed to remember it was okay to be myself, to be vulnerable. I tried my best to pay attention in class and forget about my life momentarily it worked because when the class bell rang again it was unexpected. I had come to find Tori cared for me as much I cared for her, same with Anthony, because she gave me a small hug before leaving for her next class. It always surprised me when people cared about me, surprised me they even noticed my existence in the first place. As if sensing my dwelling, Edward appeared in front of the classroom door giving me a small smile. I wanted nothing more to run into his arms but I had to remind myself we were in high school and dramatic reunions weren't common on a Monday morning. Instead I settled for holding my hand out to his as I stepped towards him and he took it with ease and my backpack with his other hand. "Good morning beautiful," he whispered into my hair, leaning down and I turned towards him, my lips centimeters from him and I felt like the entire hallway was staring at us so I just settled for giving him a small kiss on the cheek.