upset | edward cullen

thirteen

Beauty of whatever kind, in its supreme development, invariably excites the sensitive soul to tears.

EDGAR ALLEN POE

Falling, falling fast and as I tried to scream into the dark abyss below me I found no sound leaving me. As I hit the surface below I jolted and opened my eyes to find it was all a dream and I was actually screaming.

Fuck I hated these dreams, I'd often get them when I went to sleep anxious and had something to do the next day. It made sense at least as I struggled to sleep a few more hours for the day ahead. Finally giving up I texted Edward.

Me
Had a nightmare I was falling and woke up screaming :(

Edward
That's unsettling do you want me to come over?

Me
Could you?

Minutes later I heard a rap at my window and opening the blinds to see my overly worried vampire boyfriend. Edward was tense as he pulled me in for a hug, my scent probably being overwhelming but still his warmth and embrace calmed me. He pulled me to bed and made sure I was comfortable, my back against his chest and his arm across my stomach. My head fit was under his chin and usually I wouldn't be able to sleep in this situation with Edward but his scent and warmth lulled me to sleep.

The next morning Edward woke me to say my mother would be coming up soon and he would wait in my closet. I just mumbled something akin to okay and he chuckled, kissing my nose as he unfurled from my hold. Soon enough I was getting ready for the day remembering what today was and reminding my mother.

Alice had invited me to go shopping with her. Knowing Alice Cullen, that meant we were going out of town and fast. My mother liked Alice and of course trusted Carlisle so it was only natural she let me go. Edward watched as I got ready even trying to convince me to let him put lipstick on me. I had chosen a bright red and I didn't want him to mess it up, plus I couldn't handle him being that close to me in my bedroom with my mother downstairs. Last night didn't count she wasn't conscious, at least that's what I would tell myself. He informed me that Alice was outside as I filled my coat pockets with everything I would need. His hand found mine and pulled me to his chest. I looked up at him and couldn't resist ruining his perfect pale skin. I pressed my very red lips against his cheek, "better." He scoffed before kissing me on the lips and I had forgotten Alice was outside or even that I wasn't flying up to heaven as I kissed him back. I reveled at the sight of my lipstick smeared across his lips and I knew I looked just as wild and then he rested his head on my shoulder as if the kissing could have stolen his breath away or made him dizzy like it made me.

In his embrace, he whispered into my hair as if Alice couldn't hear us from her parked car in my driveway, "don't hesitate to call me if anything happens okay?" I hesitated to leave his embrace but eventually after a couple beats and a kiss, I did. I said goodbye to my mother as I went downstairs. She just yelled goodbye from the kitchen.

"Hey bestie! Ready to rock n roll?" Alice grinned like a cheshire cat as I sat in the passenger seat of her bmw. She looked at me strangely then laughed. "Uhm you got a little..." She gestured to her general mouth area and much to my dismay I had forgotten to clean up my lipstick. Mortified was an understatement for what I felt. I quickly pulled down her folded mirror and fixed myself to the best of my ability.

"Oh my god I'm mortified. Thanks for this by the way." It was a nice way to break the ice at least but I would definitely be telling Edward about this episode if he didn't hear it already. I knew the Cullens weren't particularly fond of me but Alice and Emmett seemed to like me, or at least they pretended like they did.