Different Beginning

1st Time On Ellen

Demi POV

   We spent a few days in London for the Camp Rock premier no days off. We  couldn't stay long since the brothers, Miley and Myself had a benefit concert we where performing at. I was glad to see Miley. I saw her 3 weeks ago for my birthday, but it feels like forever since we are officially done with tour. Now we where all starting filming immediately. The Brothers got there show Jonas. I was filming Sonny With A Chance. Madi booked a role on desperate housewives and Frankie was doing a voice over movie with Miley little sister Noah. We where excited when Madi and Frankie booked their project. 

   The day we got back home to Malibu after the benefit concert. Dani came to visit Kevin. I didn't tell Cody I was home he found out I was in LA for the benefit though social media. Yea we talked everyday, but I was avoiding seeing him. Why? Because I knew Cody was falling for me. I didn't wanna keep leading him on. He deserves to find someone who will love him for him; I could never. The  past 5 months with Cody where great.  We never had any down moments. Even going on tour doing my own thing for a bit I always found myself day dreaming/ Thinking about Joe not Cody. So when Cody found out I was Home he called me. He was mad at first but got over it cause he knew that I was busy plus Kevin and I were planning a birthday party for Nick, Dani and Frankie. We had it on the roof top there wasn't as much people as the first time we throw a party for my birthday. I know I was wrong to end things with Cody that night but honestly I didn't care. I did how ever ended up having sex with Joe that night.

   When I told Miley about the break up she didn't care she wasn't mad she knows my feelings towards Joe. Miley always said what ever happens between Cody and I won't affect our friendship and I told her the same with her and Cody I didn't care if they had a kiss scene or not though out Hannah Montana. Work was always separated from our personal life. Miley was Turning 16 in a few months so she was already learning to drive her parents let her take the car out so since we are both single now and home we took advantage of that. Miley started picking me up and taking me out to parties luckily she knew a lot of people in this industry there was a party like every weekend and since she was cool with everyone they all knew not to post pictures or videos cause both our parents will have a field day with us. I never invited the brothers out with us. One because Kevin might tell, 2 Miley didn't wanna party with Nick around even if he was or wasn't with Selena at the moment and 3 the way she felt about Nick I felt about Joe. No one knows Cody and I broke up except Joe and Miley. Because I sometimes would tell them that's who I was spending my weekends with. I eventually told them we broke up when they keep asking for Cody to have Dinner with us. Paul and Denise where shocked since this is my first real breakup and as a teenager in Hollywood  they where expecting more of a dramatic hurt/ sad  breakdown. 

   They didn't know about all the partying. Man was it a lot of it too. There where times Miley and I where to out of it we had to take a taxi to her house cause I couldn't go home to Paul and Denise all out of it and fucked up. Miley loved to party and when she partied she partied and I mean there was no stopping us. Miley liked to experiment not only on Alcohol ,but drugs too and since we where each other person what ever she did I did. We didn't experiment to much on drugs just different types of  Pot and different types of Bars. I never took pot to the House to afraid someone will smell it or find it. I would sneak bottles and bars into the house and hid them up in my room.

   Today was October 1 and I was appearing on the Ellen Show for the first time.  Besides good morning America and red carpet events I haven't actually done a talk show before. I was hesitant when Paul asked if I wanted to be on the show. I only agreed to be on the show if she didn't ask Jonas Brother related questions. I know everyone knows I live with them but we never actually talked about it to the world. Mostly because I wasn't ready for the world to know mine and Madi story. It's a tragedy and I don't want Madi ambushed by the media or fans and since she is starting her acting career.

"Our first guest has a song called Get Back that she will be performing for us later in the show. Please welcome my guest Demi Lovato" Ellen introduced and I walked out giving her a hug before taking my seat. 

"How are you today Demi" Ellen asked 

"Good how are you" I asked fake laughing nervously 

"Good have you heard they are calling you the girl Jonas brother. There where fans waiting for you before I even got in" Ellen said 

"Awe, we'll I am a sister" I said laughing awkwardly. I didn't wanna sound bitter but I was hoping she would change the subject. 

"So we heard, we also heard before you came to Hollywood you where in school but got pulled out" Ellen said finally something worth talking about on TV. 

" yea kinda, in the seventh grade kids can be cruel. It wasn't about popularity sure I would of loved to be popular maybe I wouldn't have been bullied. Things where so bad at home kids I went to school with, girls I known since elementary started bullying me due to family issues things got so bad I had to start get homeschool" I said 

"No one knows bullying actually does affect people" Ellen said 

"Right it does, I've been thought it all I try to keep a straight head and be..." what was that world 

"A role model, you are, you can say it" Ellen said but am I really? if parents knew about Disney newest star is an alcoholic and pill popper will the world still see me as a role model.

"Yea a role model. Sometimes I'll make mistakes but I'm only human. Being a good role model I speak up against bullying the world needs to know bullying is not okay." I said 

"That's right bullying is not okay. Please stick around for a performance by Demi Lovato" Ellen said and the screen went to commercial. I performed my first single Get Back for the audience then headed off to rehearsals for Sonny With A Chance.