Closer to Fate (L.H.)

CTF Chapter 11

Author's note: I've been feeling a little down lately. I don't know... I feel like bursting. I need to write, I badly need this to express my feelings, especially in this chapter. Anyway, Enjoy then!

(Marguerite Irwin's POV)

I'm always alone, right? Well, yeah sometimes i'm with Terrence, Aldrin, Luke, Kuya, Cal, or Mike.

But, a girl friend. I don't have one, at the moment. Why?

I haven't find any yet. I didn't want a best friend anyway, I just need a true friend. Whom I could be really honest with everything, I could tell her about my favorite bands, singers, movies, or watch Divergent, The fault in our stars, Best of me, We could stroll around the Mall and buy T-shirts, Flannels, or Jeans. Talk about boys without hesitations. And of course, Be honest about everything. If I wear a lousy shirt, she would probably tell me, "Ew! You look like my Grandma!"

Even in friendships, You need Trust or the openness to each other. You shouldn't keep secrets to her since, your her friend. And she trusts you, more than you even realize it.

About backstabbing her. You shouldn't! You should tell her directly. That's what friends do, anyway. Being honest to each other without any further hesitations or whatever.

And you should always support her on everything, her dreams for example. Since its her dream, You should always be with her, beside her.

But then, a true friend is really hard to find. It's like you're finding an emerald or a topaz in your backyard.

If I had one, even just one. I'll be the happiest weird nerd in our university. I would appreciate her existence and always cheers her up whenever she feels down and wouldn't leave her side even if the world end.

I wonder sometimes, when could I find her? I couldn't wait for that day. If only I have her, I'll be less sadder than this.

I wanted to hang out with her, have a slumber party, just the two of us.

I have Terrence, but it would be different, If I have a girl friend. Completely different.

I took a sit in my bed. I was preoccupied about the thoughts of having a girl/true friend.

Di pa pala umuuwi si Luke, andun pa sa baba with kuya.

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Nakatanggap ako ng text galing kay Terrence.

From: Terrence A.

Hoy.

A sly smile plastered in my face as I received his text. Lukso ng dugo ba ang tawag nito?

To: Terrence A.

Ano nanaman?

Nag-vibrate agad.

From Terrence A.

Wala lang, nararamdaman ko ang ka-emotan mo.

Wow grabe ha.

To: Terrence A.

Nah, okay lang ako.

Obviously, I'm lying.

A few minutes passed at hindi pa nagrereply ang mokong.

Nakita ko nalang sa screen ko na tumatawag pala si Rence, I quickly answered it.

"Hoy," Sabi niya.

"Oh? Napatawag ka?"

"Sabi mo kasi, 'Okay lang ako.'"

"So?"

"I'm not dumb, Marguerite." It's a sign seryoso siya, di niya ako tinawag na, "Margarita."

"..."

"Anong problema?" He sounded worried at the same time, sincere.

"Wala nga,"

"Sus, ba't ka ba nagsisinungaling, ha?"

"Why would I lie?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Nararamdaman ko yun," He snapped.

"Okay, okay," I rolled my eyes.

"Ano?"

"Erm.. N-Naisip ko lang kung may... girl friend ako," I wasn't sure kung sasabihin ko sa kanya or what pero, ayun na.

"What? Tomboy ka?!" Tanga talaga nito kahit kailan.

"Babaeng kaibigan! Leche ka talaga!"

"Awsus. Ang drama mo!"

I rolled my eyes and laid back in my bed again.

"Hindi, yung totoong kaibigan."

"Andito naman ako, ah?" I could imagine the expression on his face while saying these words.

"Hindi, yung babae nga!" I laughed.

"Edi..."

"Ano?"

"..."

"Magbabakla ka?" I burst out laughing. He sighed.

"Ano ka ba,"

"HAHAHAHAHAHA!"

"Pwede mo naman ako mashare-an ng mga girls thought,"

"Iba pa rin kasi eh,"

"Ihahanap kita!"

"Sus, makakahanap din ako niyan!"

"Kaya nga, hehe. Goodnight na nga."

"Okay, night."

"Sweet dreams, Margarita." And the line went off. Ang sweet ni Lexis.

I appreciate him, bigtime. Sobrang saya ko na may bestfriend ako na tulad niya. Sobrang childish pero pag mag-seryoso naku friend, tunaw you.

I quickly opened my music and scanned my best senti song. I found my headphones beside my bag in my window couch.

I grabbed it and played the song.

Always in a rush

Never stayed on the phone long enough

Why, am I so self important?

Said "I'd see you soon"

But that was on maybe a year ago

Didn't know time was at the essence

So many questions,

But I'm talking to myself

I know that you can't hear me anymore, not anymore

So much to tell you,

And, most of our goodbye

But I know that you can't hear me anymore

It's so loud...

Inside my head

With words that I should've said

And as I drown in my regrets

I can't take that

The words I never said...

I never said...

I can't take that

The words I never said...

I loved this song. The lyrics melts my heart, every word that Skylar Grey speaks/sings.

I didn't notice Luke staring at me beside my bedroom door.

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I just needed this.

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