While Holding the Pain

Chapter_49

Roshni's P.O.V.

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After dinner, I was about to leave but thinking something, I stopped and turned to Ruhaan.

He was about to enter the kitchen but  when I uttered, “Ruhaan?”, he stopped midway and turned to me.

And I uttered, “Thank you.”

Being confused, he asked me, “For what?”

With a smile, I answered him, “For everything.” and left from there. Entering room, I said my prayer and got on the bed.

I was trying to get some sleep but whatever happened to me earlier today kept coming to my mind.

I was just thinking how could Tamim do this to me. It wasn’t like our marriage was just arranged or he didn’t know me earlier.

He knew me since our college days then how could he believe all those rumors about me? Didn’t he always keep saying that he loves me!

Just remembering his saying ‘He loves me’ and then his silence when my character was questioned made my heart filled with hatred for him.

The neighbours who didn't even know me were present in the backyard of my house then. We didn’t invite them then why they were there?

Who invited them! They even uttered that we have to leave the locality.

Then something popped in my mind. Was it anyway connected to the incident back then!

I uttered under my breath, “Titly!”

There were so many questions and confusions going on in my mind that I couldn’t handle it for long and ended up getting knocked out.

But I got up suddenly having a dream while screaming, “Noo”.

I couldn’t remember what was it exactly but I was scared and sweating terribly. I kept looking all around me to find Tithy but then I remembered I wasn’t there beside her then.

I was so lost in my thought that I didn’t realise when Ruhaan entered the room and got all startled when he slightly put his hand on my shoulder.

Getting myself together, I just uttered, “I need to go my home now.”  and looked up at him.

With uttered confusion, he asked me, “Roshni, what happened?”

When I just uttered again, “I need to go my home NOW.” and got down from bed. He nodded at me and looking at the clock, he spoke up, “Okay. But Roshni, it’s already Fazar time. Let’s say our prayer. It will help you calm down. After that if you still want to go your home, I will take you there.”

I tried to refuse but he made me agreed to him. After prayer, I got out of the room looked for the guest room where Ruhaan said he would stay but was getting confused as there were two rooms where lights were on.

I went towards one room and knocked but didn’t hear any response. I was about to enter the room but right then Ruhaan called me from behind, “Roshni?”

Getting all startled, I turned to him and uttered, “I was looking for you.”

He nodded and asked me, “Do you really want to go to your house now? I mean this time.. ”

Nodding at him, I spoke up sternly, “I need to go.”

“Okay then. Let’s go.”, saying this, he started walking towards staircase and when I uttered, “Ruhaan?”, he turned to me.

I spoke up casually, “You don’t need to go with me. I can” and interrupting me, he spoke up, “You won’t be alone anymore. I promised you, remember?”