Broken (Carl Grimes)

Chapter 9

For some reason Taylor's death is hitting me hard. Carl has been there through it all. Kyle tries to be there but i dont really know him. Its very sweet of him though. Loosing Taylor changed me. 

I walk down the hall with Carl. Hes talking about something but honestly im not paying to much attention. 

" Did you hear me? "

I look at Carl and shake my head no. 

I say " Im sorry i wasnt paying attention. "

He says " What are you thinking about? "

I say  " life."

He says " Like what? "

I say " I dont know, kinda just getting lost in thought. "

" Allicia can you please put Judith to sleep? "

I walk over into Beth's cell with Judith. Beth hands her to me and i start shaking her, rocking her back and fourth but its not working. I sit on Beth's bed and cradle her in my hands. 

" A drop in the ocean a change in the weather, i was praying you and me might end up together, its like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert but im holding you closer than most. Cause you are my heaven.

Late night calls and another text is this as good as where gonna get? Another time zone taking me away from you. Living dreams and flouresent lights while you and i are running out of time. but you know ill always wait for you.

She know she knows that i never let her down before. She knows she know that ill never let another take her love from me no! "

I finish singing my little mix of random songs and Judith is fast asleep with a smile on her little face. I lay her in her crib and walk out of the cell only to see a little group of people. People who where listening to me sing. My eyes go big and i quickly walk away before they can say anything. 

"Allicia! Wait. "

I turn to see Kyle. 

I say " Dont compliment me. "

He says " Why not? That way am- "

I say " I said dont compliment me. Please. I dont want them. "

He says " But you really are that go- "

I say "Kyle. Stop please. Thank you but i dont wanna hear them. "

 He says " Whats your problem? "

I say " I dont have a problem. "

He says " Then why the hell cant i compliment you? "

I say " Because i dont like compliments. Thats all. "

He says " Oh if it was Carl you would take them. "

I turn to look at him and stop walking. 

I say " No i wouldnt. Stop acting like you know me because you dont. Okay? "

I turn and keep walking away from him. I go into my cell and sit on the bed. 

I hate how people around here think they know me. No one knows me but Carl because he actually took the time to get to know me. I pull my knife out and start messing with it. 

I wont do it. I wont do it. Im doing so good. 

I look at my door and see shadows of people running. I stand up, grab my gun and point out the door. I see a lady.

I say " Whats going on? "

She says " He's here. Pack everything. Hurry. "

I quickly grab my emergency bag and put it on my back. I run outside and get tossed a gun. I stand next to Carl's side and look through the fence. I see a tank, a lot of people i dont know, Hershal and Michonne, and then... him. My eyes go wide and i back up. I drop my gun and stare.

" Allicia whats wrong? Allicia? "

I say " I- i- i- i- uhm- He- Oh my god. "

" What what is it? "

I say " He raped me. "

"Which one? "

I point to the one who raped me. He sitting on the tank watching everything. My body starts to shake and my mind starts playing scenes from that night. 

I say " I i i uhm i think i should sit down. "

He nods and Daryl looks at me and nods. I nod back and take a seat. 

" I heard you have a girl in there. A 13 year old girl named Allicia. Blond hair and beautiful eyes. Amazing voice. You know who im talking about. "

I snap my eyes open and see some man talking to Rick about me. 

Rick says " We do yes. But its her choice if she comes out or not. She's her own person. "

" Yeah we wont her with the prison. There is no going out of this. Either you give us what we want or we take it. "

I gasp and stare at the speaker. 

Carl says " Dont think about it. "

I look at him and shake my head. 

I say " It will make things easier Carl. "

He says " No it wont. They dont want just you. They want the prison to. "

Daryl looks back at us and motions us to get up here. We both do and point our guns through the fence. 

I say " Carl. Just know i love you. "

He looks at me with wide eyes and nods. I turn my attention back to the scene in front of me. There talking. Next thing i know is there chopping off Hershals head. All hell breaks loose. I start shooting at the people i can. The other people start coming closer and were forced to go back. This isnt going to end well. Where gonna loose and i know that. I connect eyes with Carl. He nods and i nod back to him. 

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I was right. We were forced out and the prison was covered in walkers. i feld and ended up by myself. I tried looking for Carl but i couldnt find him. I couldnt find anybody. So i ran and ran as fast as i could and now im in the woods. I have no idea where im at and im starving. Im scared.