(⚠️⚠️Um, I don't what to call this, but it gets pretty depressing and su****l dreaming. Just alot of mental and physical harming⚠️⚠️)
Taka's p.o.v
We got to my room and as soon we got in I hugged him and started crying.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
I didn't answer I was too busy crying, he picked me up and carried me to my bed.
"What's a movie you like?" He asked me sitting me down.
"I don't k-know. I n-never really watched movies."
"Well, here, you look for one and I'll be right back." He got up, but then turned around
"I'm not murdering anyone this time."
I giggled at that.
I look on the TV for movies, I didn't really see any, but then I saw Nightmare before Christmas (because it's spooky season deal with it!) I turned it on and waited for Mondo.
He finally came in, holding a bunch of snacks and candy.
"I love this movie!" He shouted
"I don't think I've seen it before."
"You'll love it!"
He sat next to me and wrapped a blanket around us and pulled me closer. He grabbed a snack and gave it to me.
"Eat."
"I'm not hu-"
"I don't wanna hear it. I said to eat, so do it."
I did what he said and ate.
The movie just started and Mondo is already singing right with it. I swear I could listen to his singing all day and night, I want to.
My stomach started hurting, it's probably where I haven't been eating and I just ate.
'You don't need food. You deserve to starve.'
I can't stand these thoughts, but I can't make them stop. It's driving me crazy, literally.
I felt Mondo leaning on me, so I looked over and he was about to fall asleep. I laid back and he rested his head on my chest and wrapped his arms around me. It was then I realized he had a black eye and a bloody nose.
"Mondo! Are you okay?"
"Huh? Yeah, just tired." He said with a yawn
I got up and heard him whimper.
"Where you going?" He leaned himself up with his elbow.
I came back with a ice pack and some tissue's.
I sat next to him and wiped the blood away and put the ice pack on his eye,
He groaned at the coldness.
"Why do you this?"
"Because I care about you."
"I care about you too, Babe."
I smiled at him and threw the tissues away, when I got back, he grabbed my waist and pulled me beside him and started snuggling with me. He kissed me and then my forehead.
"You're really special to me if I'm willing to not kill someone for you."
"Thank you for not killing him." I smiled at him
"You're welcome. I love you."
"I love you, too"
He pulled me closer and started singing with the music again, I cuddle back and fell asleep with him.
(Taka's dream ⚠️sui**** and cutting⚠️)
I was walking in a dark hallway and then all of a sudden Everyone started popping in front of me, but they looked mad and even scary.
"Hey?" I said
"Don't talk to us." Kaz said
"What?"
"He said don't talk to us, dumbass!" Chihiro yelled
"What did I do?"
"You're a fucking loser!" Chiaki said
"We hate you!" Gundham yelled
"Go jump off a building!"
"Leave us alone!"
"We don't like you! You're annoying!"
Everyone was yelling at me. I didn't know what I did to make them mad at me.
"Get the fuck away from us and stop talking to us!" Kaz screamed
I ran away and ran into someone. I look up and saw Mondo.
"Mondo!" I went to hug him, but he pushed me away.
"You really think I want to hug you. I don't even like you or love you for that matter. You're so annoying and stupid! Why would I ever love someone like you! I mean look at you, I can't even explain what's wrong because everything is wrong with you! You don't deserve love! You don't deserve to live! You need to die and leave everyone alone! Get away from me, ya f*****!"
I couldn't feel anything, it was just numbness. I started crying uncontrollably, I ran away and fell to my knees. I felt someone behind, they put their hand on my shoulder and started talking.
"What a shame. You thought everyone loved you, well they don't. You should've known that. Why don't you listen to them."
I looked in front of me to see a hand come from the dark with a knife in it's hand. It dropped it In my hands and I heard the person say
"I think you know what to do."
I got a hold of the knife to where it's pointed to me and take a deep breath, and shove the knife in my chest where my heart is.
I shot up from bed, already crying. I was shaking and hyperventilating, which woke Mondo up.
"Hey! What's wrong?! Talk to me!"
I just stared at him and remembered the one in my dream and started crying harder.
"Woah, hey. It's me, it's okay!"
I got up and ran to the bathroom and locked it. I heard Mondo run behind me, but got blocked by the door.
"Taka, I don't know what's happening right now, but it's okay! I'm right here for you! Please talk to me! I wanna help, Please tell me what's wrong!"
I don't know what to believe anymore. What if Mondo is just saying that?
"No, You're just saying that! I know you don't care! You don't love me! You don't want to help me!"
"Where the fuck did that come from?! Taka, you know good fucking well I love you!"
"No, you don't! You're just saying that! Everyone fucking hates me! I know they do! I know you hate me too! Just admit it already!"
"Taka, I don't hate you! No one does!"
I didn't listen anymore, I looked over and saw a razor.
' Yes, do it. He can't see it.' I heard a voice in my head say. I grabbed it and rolled my sleeves down and started cutting
"Ah, fuck." I whispered to myself
"Taka?" I heard Mondo questioned.
I didn't answer him
"Taka! Answer me!"
I still didn't say anything
"Taka, Please answer me! I don't know what the fuck just happened, but I'm sorry. I know that feeling must suck and I hate that you feel like that! Please I love you with every nerve in my body! I want to help, Taka, you just need to let me, please Taka! I love and care about you so much, you have no idea! Please, Taka, answer me."
He waited a little bit, but then started talking again.
"Taka, I'm not good at sharing my feelings, but I'm trying my best. I can't lose you, Taka. I need you, Taka. I love you so much, and I hate every minute away from you. I just want to be with you all the time, and I can't do that. I promised myself that I would marry you when we got out of this school and I mean it, Taka. I wanna spend the rest of my life with you, and I hope you want to do the same. I want a life with you. No one has made me feel like this until you came along. I can't tell you how much I hate it when you feel like this, it just makes feel like I can't do anything, but I want to. If I could give you all my happiness I would, I could be so depressed, but if you were happy, that would make me so happy. I love your smile, Taka. I love everything about you, Taka. Please, Taka, answer me, You mean so much to me."
He was crying at that point, I covered my mouth and started sobbing. I looked down at my blood covered wrist, and started saying
"I'm so sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!"
"Taka, open the door please." Mondo asked and I did.
He walked into bathroom and saw my wrist, he walked over to me and grabbed them and started crying.
"I'm so sorry, Taka." He hugged me like their was no tommorow.
"Mondo, there is nothing to be sorry about!"
"You are hurting! And I don't know how to help!"
"Mondo, you being here for me is helping me enough! And everything you said out there I feel the exact same way! I love you so much, Mondo!"
He hugged and picked me up, kissing me.
"Here, let me take care of those." He said sitting me on the sink
"Mondo I got it."
"No, you take care of me all the time. Let me take care of you."
We both were still crying, but it was a happy cry now. I kissed him on the fore head.
"Thank you for everything, darling."
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I LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH PLEASE DON'T LET ANYONE FUCK YOU OVER. YOU ARE WORTH SO FUCKING MUCH AMD YOU DESERVE THE WORLD❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I'm gonna cry now
