zayn watched as harrie laughs with her friends. he's still determined to have her in his study group.
harrie is a pretty smart girl and he knows that she'll be perfect to get his grades up.
but he also kinda misses her. they use to be inseparable before he started high school and he wanted that back.
first he had to figure out what he did that was so terrible.
zayn takes a swig if his drink after spotting her going outside. he follows her and turns her around.
"hey, what the hell are you doing?"
zayn rolls his eyes before grabbing her hand and leading them towards his car.
"get in."
"are you out of your mind?"
"get in the fucking car harrie!"
harrie jumps before getting into the passenger seat.
"what do you want zayn?"
"i want to know why you hate me."
harrie chuckles darkly.
"you really can't remember can you?"
zayn shakes his head.
"okay fine. ill tell you. but if i do you have to promise me you'll leave me alone after this."
zayn nods his head.
harrie sighs before speaking.
"it was the first year of my seventh grade year and your first year of high school. you remember after we made the pack to never let you being in high school change our friendship?"
"is that what this is about?"
"let me finish."
zayn nods.
"we were okay at first. you continued coming over mine and we'd study together and hung out after. but of course you changed. you hit puberty and became one of the most attractive guys in school. girls wanted to date you and you were ready for the dating world. that was only the beginning." harrie sighs before she continues.
"you, liam, kenny, and hailey started to drift away from me. though i knew i was slowly losing my best friend you still stood up for me. so when kenny and the others starting oinking at me and calling me chubster you stood up for me. that is until one day. we were all suppose to hang at yours and when i arrived i overheard you laughing when they called me names. you told them that you felt bad for me, that you knew no one would ever want to be friends with someone like me." harrie sheds a tear at the memory.
zayn looked horrified.
he remembered that day. it was the same day perrie edwards asked him out and he remembers her asking why he was friends with harrie.
zayn just went along with the name calling because he really liked her. he was a stupid, dumb, dickhead of a teenager.
he was mostly thinking with his dick back then. he regretted those words as soon as they came out of his mouth.
"harrie im-"
"that was the year my father made it official with my step mom. did you know that summer my mom sent me to fat camp? that was the year i wanted to die zayn. i wanted to end my life because i thought i was worthless. i would self harm everytime someone called me fat or oinked at me. i needed you the most that year but i knew i lost you. so im sorry but i could never forgive you. goodbye zayn." harrie hops out of his car wiping the tears from her face.
meanwhile zayn felt shameful.
he knew he fucked up and he knew it was gonna take a lot more than just an half ass apology and some tattoo he's gotten.
he was willing to make this right.
