zayn wasn't really feeling today at all. all weekend he kept thinking about harrie and what he did to her and he couldn't help but hate himself.
harrie was his best friend and when she needed him the most he wasn't there. zayn was too busy thinking with his dick to actually care about anything or anyone.
he sighs as he picks at his lunch and his friends blabber on about god knows what.
"zayn, man. you alright?"
zayn looks up and sees liam frowning.
zayn just puts on a fake smile before nodding.
"yeah, im good. what are we talking about."
"we're talking about the green dress harrie wore at louis' party saturday. it was honestly ridiculous she thought she could pull that off." liam laughs along with everyone else.
zayn frown.
"i don't think she looked bad."
"you're kidding right? that dress wasn't the right fit for her and everyone knew it. that was like the talk of the party." kylie states after grabbing her boyfriends arm.
zayn yanks his arm away.
"can you guys stop making fun of her. she's fucking human for christ sake."
everyone eyes widened.
"dude, chill it's just a joke." liam blurts out.
"it's not though liam." zayn groans before he gets up and walks away.
kylie frowns and follows him.
"what the fuck was that?"
"not now kylie."
kylie grabs his arm and spins him around.
"are you seriously getting upset about this? i mean, we're all just trying to help the girl out."
"by fat shaming her?"
"by telling her she's overweight and it's not fucking healthy zayn. no matter how everyone puts it. isn't it best to tell her the truth than to fucking lie to her face? i mean come on zayn."
zayn looks at her angrily.
"fuck you kylie. don't bother coming to my house tonight." zayn states before walking away.
**********
when zayn gets home he knocks on his parents bedroom door.
"who's there?"
"it's me pops."
"come in."
zayn opens the door before spotting his parents lying in bed watching television.
"what's up baby?" luke smiles at his son.
"i screwed up big time."
luke and matt frowns at their son.
"what did you do?" matt asked.
"remember a few months ago, when you guys asked me whatever happened to me and harrie's friendship?"
"yeah."
"i told you guys we just drifted apart. at the time i thought it was true too but it's not. when i started my high school year i was too busy thinking about girls and popularity that i basically joined in on bashing her."
"bashing her?"
"yeah. i started joining in on fat shaming her."
luke and matt looks at him disappointed.
"zayn."
"i know."
"you of all people should know better than that. you grew up with two fathers and not only are you biracial but your siblings are also people of color. you know what it's like growing up into a superficial, stereotypical, hurtful world and yet you did the same to harrie. how could you son?" matt asked.
zayn felt so guilty at this point. he knew he fucked up but he didn't think about himself in this situation. his parents were right. he always has to deal with looks. not only because of the color of his ethnicity but also because of his dads.
people everywhere judge him and ask him about his parents.
"im a shitty person i know that. but i really do want to fix this. how do i fix it?"
"it's not gonna be easy son but you need to come up with a way to apologize to her that will get her to forgive. this doesn't mean she's gonna wanna be your friend again but you have to at least try." luke states.
zayn nods.
"thanks dad."
"you welcome. now get out. your father and i were in the middle of an episode of friends."
zayn rolls his eyes before he leaves the room. he sighs as he grabs his phone out of his back pocket and scrolls until he finds harries number.
