A Midst of Sadness

Best

I will no longer be brave
I will no longer ask Why
I will no longer wish to be
Your best

I will no longer wish to be a specific 
Role in your life
I will no longer pretend
To be something I will never be

I cannot portray such a lie
I cannot portray a simple key
I cannot try to tell you
Once
I cannot be simply me 

I told you once that I wanted
And needed to be
But you brush me off
Like a after piece of life
Nothing longing
Nothing there

Longing for your best 
Fishing for your truth
Knowing I'm lying here
Awake from you
Nothing else to hold

You've told me more than one time
You've told me more than two
How could I ever be so bold
To ever be so true

I cannot sit back and watch 
As my life goes through 
The door
I long to be your best
But I'm losing 
So far