A Midst of Sadness

Jacob

I felt like playing that sad song
You know? 
The one that reminds me of...you?

Do you Remember?
The night that you taught me? 
The night I knew I loved you...
You have no idea how hurt I have been

I love you.
You were becoming my world.
Please.
Can you remember?
Remember for me?
The way you left...left me.
You just picked up and left me out of the blue

Was I nothing? Nothing to you at all?
Remember when we met?
How you could throw me above your arms?

I told you, you couldn't do it
You proved me wrong and I was safe
There are nights where I can still...
taste your kiss

Remember?
I do.
I still think of the day when you told me
I deserved a man to treat me right
I still believe that man is you
You never gave me any reason...
A reason to not love you

Eleven Months
Jacob, I love you
Jacob? Can you hear me?
Do you even care?

I can't bring myself to love any other
I still keep your number in my phone
Hoping...
Hoping you'll find it in your heart to talk to me
Again...
Will you even believe me if I say you're the only one?
I remember...
I remember when you said that I was beautiful
What about the time that you told me that you want to start over?

You wanted to start over
And I believe it was going somewhere
Did you ever have hope? 
Hope for us? 
I did. I hope I still can
I don't want it to be the end
No end of you, no end of us
Please no more excuses
I wanted you and only you
Did you know? 

Everyday since we stopped talking
I haven't stopped thinking of you
I want you to know...
If I told you I loved you, 
Would it make you want to stay?
Was I too late??

Please? Answer me? 
Are you even there?
Can you remember
When I told you that 'stay' reminded me of us?
Well it did and still does
There are days that I can't even listen to it

Do you see what you've done?
You've left me here alone? 
I remember everything...
The clothes you wore
The mohawk you had
And the smell of your body

I met someone new...
He must be a comparison to you
You've become the story of my life
I wish I could hold back the pain
It's just too hard for me
It's crushing me
I remember everything
Do you?

I want to believe you'll come back
Will you?
Will you please just remember me?
You cannot and will not 
Be Forgotten