Austin Mahone Imagines

ill miss you my beautiful

i look at the picture of our first born baby.. his name was Carter.. he died on the day after Christmas.. it was hard loosing him even after Christmas..

flashback~
Carter had a problem with his body, and the doctor told us that he wouldn't be able to live that very long.. my baby has always been at the hospital. he always asked me why he was always there, and I couldn't tell him that he was dying. so the whole time Austin and I had to lie.. it was the worst thing that we ever had to do. sometimes when I come to see him to see if he's okay, I always tear when walking to his room.. so I always wait by the door for a couple minutes until all my tears are gone. I walk in and I see him playing with the toys we bought him for his 4th birthday.. His birthday is on December 25 and he will be turning 5 this year. I sit by his bed side while he's playing with his toy. I was just texting Austin telling him he was okay. for now.. "mommy? what are you doing??" "oh sweetie, I'm just texting daddy.. don't worry, he'll be back soon to see you." "you mean us right?" "yeah.."

I feel sad for my baby.. he always had to eat the hospital food, and usually he doesn't enjoy them.. the nurse let me bring him food from home to enjoy.. it's good to see him always smiling even though I couldn't give anything else for him other than much love. I brought his favorite peanut butter sandwich to eat for lunch with some orange juice to go along with it.. couple hours have gone by, and I heard a small knock on the door.. I look to the door, and I see Austin with something in his hand. "Austin, what's that??" I turn to look at him. "shh.. don't wake him up.. it's a toy truck he always asked for.. his birthday is in a couple days so I'm gonna hide the box so he won't see it.." Austin walks to Carters bed, and hid the toy under the bed.. I motion Austin to sit with me to cuddle with.. "what am I gonna do Austin?? I don't want to loose him.." "shhhh.. don't worry.. he won't be gone.. it's okay.." I cry on Austin's chest.. he plays with my hair and kisses my forehead..

December 25, 2020:

we decorated his room for Christmas the day before while he was sleeping.. we also hung 'Happy Birthday' banner on the ceiling. we put a little Christmas to put all his toys under, and it looked really pretty all around. it brought cheer to Austin and my faces. we heard Carter starting to wake up, and we hid behind the the door. we watch as he sits up,and he was smiling with joy.. he looked all around and he saw all the ornaments hung. it was breath taking to see him all happy.. we jumped into his room and yelled "HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MERRY CHRISTMAS CARTER!" he started jumping on his bed. we came to him and he gave us the most biggest hug he ever gave us.. having him in our arms was the best feeling.. "so do you wanna open your Christmas or your birthday present first?" Austin says as he sits next to him. "my Christmas presents!!!" Austin took the first box.. it was from the foolish four.. it was a big box too. as he was unwrapping it, we heard a lot of screaming from outside.. I opened the door, and the whole family came to celebrate Carters Birthday. he was really happy to see all of them. when he finally opened the first present, he was shocked that he got the action figures he wanted.. the boys bought the whole entire figures he wanted, and there was like 5 he wanted.. he was so happy. "thank you!!!"

the rest of the morning he was opening all of his Christmas and birthday gift.. "oh Carter, here.. this one is from me and mommy.." I looked to Austin and smiled.. Carter opened the box and it was a little bracelet, just like Austin's bracelet he got from Mema. "why did you get me a bracelet?" "Carter, never take this off ok? this will mean a lot to you when you get older.. you have the same bracelet I have when your great grandma gave me my bracelet." he put it on his wrist.. the whole day he was playing with all his toys he has gotten..

December 26, 2020:

"no!!!!! Carter please come back!! please!!!!" I cry on his bed pleading for Carter to wake up.. the doctor came rushing in.. he starting trying to relieve him back, but it was sadly to late.. I cried and cried.. I didn't know what to do no more.. my life is now empty. I just want the Carter that was happy yesterday.. the Carter who was always asking what I'm doing.. the Carter who a,ways asked questions. the Carter that always got happy when he saw the boys or Michele.. "Carter please!!! please please please.." Austin runs in to the room.. he stops right there.. I look up to him, and his face expression turns ice.. his life was broken.. once he saw my face he broke down. I started sobbing, and started kicking punching and hitting the walls. "Austin.. Austin.. AUSTIN!!! stop!!!" I run to him to stop hurting himself.. "stop!!!"

he pulled me into a tight hug and we cried on each other.. the next day, we had Carters funeral...

couple days has passed.. the doctor came into Carters room to clean up. as the nurse was helping she found a box under the bed. it read "to Carter from mommy and daddy." she read the note that was attached to it.

"hi Carter.. happy birthday and merry Christmas.. I hope you enjoy this red truck I got you.. I remember how whenever we go to a toy shop, you would go and look for this truck, and if it's not there, you would get mad.. but I finally got it for you.. just remember that me and mommy always love you. we are sorry you are going through this. you will get out of this hospital some time, but not right now. the doctor wants to make sure that you are getting better so you can come home. I love you buddy.. from: daddy and mommy."

~end of FlashBack~

I was listening to Humans by Christina Perri, and Austin comes in and he comes to pull me up, and he comes behind me to rock me back and forth. his head was in the crook of my neck, and his hands were wrapped securely around my waist. "you know he is In a better place right? even though here is a good place too.." "I know Austin.. I just miss him so much.. it's already been a year.. he's already six.. Idk why we had to loose him the day after Christmas.." "it's okay baby.. maybe if we make another one, we could tell him/her all about Carter and how brave he was.. now he can see Mema and my dad.." "yeah.." bye Carter..

I will forever love you and always carter💞

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