It's my party and I can cry if I want to

You ☀️👈🏾

Every day it gets easier without you,

but I still think about you at least once a day-

HoW DoEs ThAt WoRk?

Sometimes I can hear the beautifulness of your laughter when I wanna cry,
Sometimes I can visualize the immaculate power in your stance whenever you feel passionate,
And Sometimes I can imagine us living in a fantasy world- that we built,

It was suppose to be you and I,And now it's me, again.

So so so close yet so far from reach,

You were a dream that I couldn't resist to chase,
You were a blazing hell fire ruining whatever was in reach,
And you were scared of living while I was scared of dying,

God, you were so scared of the potential you had,
And I was so scared that my potential would be forgotten,

WhAt DiD ThAt BrInG uS?

The distortion of my eyesight- sees you wherever I go,
The girl with the cloudy hair and the strong cheek bones,
You were an unwritten body of work and I wasn't meant to write you,
I tried so hard to be enough but enough is never enough,
The mutual pinning was ... me, myself and I,

I knew you weren't in it but we pretended like you were,

Warmth will always live in my heart and that's where you live,
Distant, untouched, and ... gone at the same time.

You did what you do best and that's be-

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OuT oF ReAcH.

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Artist: Anne Magill (Never let me go)
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Hi!! I wrote this poem in reference to completely closing that chapter of my life with the girl I use to really like. I recently took the initiative to delete some of the things we had together to move on and I thought I'd write something about her for the last time. It's just me coming to terms with all of the red flags and signs that she mentally checked out of our relationship. I wish nothing the best for her best and all of the happiness in the world wherever she is. Sometimes things are meant to happen temporarily before they disappear after fulfilling its duty and I'll never regret any experience that I'm presented with. I hope this influences someone to be as positive about a split even if it ended on weird terms- someone or something better is coming! Don't stress! 🧡🧡