The Forgotten Night (BxB)-COMPLETED

Ikatatlumpong Kabanata

Ikatatlumpong Kabanata

WE ALREADY left the place but I can't get rid of the painful words that they threw to us while ago. They were creeping inside my body, tightening my chest and making my body feel numb.

Their disgusted expressions, keeps on replaying on my mind. Halos masuka sila kanina dahil lang sa sinabi kong mahal ko siya. Mali ba 'yon? Mali bang nahulog ako ang kapareho ko ng kasarian? Sa bitag ng kapalaran?

Marahil nga. Dahil hindi naman sila aakto ng gano' n kung hindi diba? But calling me-us, a sons of evil is really hurts.

This is the reason why I don't want to come out. They are solid as fvck when it comes to judging someone. Their ears are close for our explanation or our sides.

They see what they want to, and they believe what they want to. What a hypocrite are they.

I sniffed when I can't stop the tears flowing down. I lean on Init's shoulder while he was driving and wrapped my hands too tight around his waist, kaya gumalaw siya paharap ng kunti para hindi maipit ang aking kamay. And while we are in that position, hindi parin matigil ang paglaglag ng aking mga luha. I took a deep breath and as I released my breath, my lips shook.

His hands are shaking as he shift the car on the other direction. We felt drain. "Stop crying." He said almost whisper. I understand him, he doesn't have enough strength right now. "Babe," he uttered when I didn't reply. "It's ok. Everything will be ok. Don't worry. Hmm?" He looked at me a bit. And him hummed just made my tears rolled more.

I sniffed again. "B-Bakit ba kase ganon sila, Sun?" My voice cracked. I don't want-no, I can't stop it.

"Ang sakit lang isipin na ang mga taong inaasahan mong nakakaintindi sa'yo pero sila pa ang unang huhusga sa iyo." I parted my lips to gasp some air because I feel like I will lose my breath if I will not.

Hindi ito umimik marahil hindi alam kung ano ang sasabihin. "Mali bang maging masaya sa piling mo?" I wiped the tears on my cheeks using the back of my hand. "Mali ba ang mahalin ka?" Yet, he didn't spoke. "Hindi ba pwedeng hayaan nalang nila tayo, Sun?... Why don't they just become happy f-for us?"

"Stop crying babe." He uttered. He glanced at me but it didn't last long because he turned his eyes on the road giving me a small smile. "You will become ugly." He joked to ease the heavy atmosphere. But I don't think he succeeded. Kase dahil sa ginawa niya, mas marami pang luha ang nalaglag.

He is trying his best to be strong. Because he knew that he is the only one left for me. That if he will break down, what will just happen to us?

I admire him for being courageous brave, strong and fortitude in every situation like this and how he dealt with it. I hope I got the guts like him.

Hindi ako nagsalita at oras oras ay sumisinghot ako.

Naiisip ko na noon na may posibilidad na ganito ang mangyayari sa oras na malaman nila ang totoo pero hindi ko lang inaasahan na ganito sila kalala at mas masakit pala na nilalait ka harap-harapan, at hindi nga ako mali sa parteng iyon. Dahil andito na. Heto na, ang saya nga e. Tinaboy kaming dalawa ng sarili naming pamilya.

Pinunas ko agad ang luha na nagbabadya na namang tumulo.

He shifted the gear and turned to turn the car to the right. Out of nowhere, Init talked. "You know... I understand them... Our relationship is not normal to their eyes."

"What part is not normal?... Oh, yeah o-our gender." Pahina ng pahina ang boses ko nang mapagtanto ito. "But that doesn't mean they have the right to humiliate us, look down on us. We are still h-human. We have feelings." Hindi ito nagsalita. "After all, they are our family." and they just disowned me because I chose you.