The Dawn ||J•Jk

tantrum

I woke up to the sound of soft rains. I groaned and tried to fall asleep again. No I won't wake up early this time. I humphed in silence and tried to sleep when suddenly a sharp pain from my abdomen overtook my senses.

"Shit." I groaned and held my stomach under the sheets. My eyes started watering itself. The pain started to get unbearable. Then I felt something flowing down there and my eyes shot in realisation. No no no no. I thought to myself. It can't be. I can't afford to get my periods now. I tried to get up but the impact suddenly doubled the pain on my stomach which made me lay flat on the bed again. A shriek escaped from my mouth.

A few moments later I heard Jungkook knocking on my door. "Adi is everything alright?"

Damn it.

I couldn't even open my mouth due to the excess pain. I somehow got down from my bed and literally crawled to open the door. I turned around for a little bit to see a huge blood spot on the light grey bedsheet. A few amount of incoherent curse escaped my lips as I opened the door.

"Adi are you....oh my god what happened?" He said with his eyes widened. I was about to fall down when he caught me strongly between his arms. His eyes darted around the room and finally land on the bed. He made an inaudible 'oh' and rubbed my back for a little while.

I was so dazed in the pain that I couldn't even form sentences. Yes that's how my periods occur. I don't think any girl likes it but something is totally wrong with me because the amount of pain that I go through within these five days is insane. It literally drives me to kill myself sometimes.

He carried me to the washroom. I was feeling a little better and could stand by myself.

I peeked into the bedroom and looked at him with apologetic eyes. "I'm so sorry. I will wash the bedsheets."

He looked confused at first but then shook his head. "You don't have to do anything. It's laundry day anyway leave it to me."

I widened my eyes as embarrassment hit me. "What? No. I'll wash it."

"Don't worry about it Adi." He said wiping my sweaty forehead. "You take a shower. I'll head to the store to buy some tampons and heating pad okay?"

I could only just nod. The guilt was overtaking again. He closed the bathroom door after him. I looked myself in the mirror and couldn't help myself but feel like a damn burden. I hated it. Why does it have to be this way? I was supposed to take care of him. Make him happy. Not the other way around. I decided to get out from the bloody pyjamas.

Damn I felt worse. He so kindly handed me his pyjamas and I had to go ahead and ruin it. Tears started forming in my eyes. I could be wrong if I say that I don't get emotional during periods. I fucking cry more than a baby in this time. But I had to check my emotions at this point. I couldn't burden him more.

I sniffed and turned on the warm shower. It felt so good as the burning hot water made the pain a little less. I didn't know how long I was in the shower but I suddenly heard a knock on the bathroom door.

"Adi?"

"Hmm?"

"I've put the tampons and the heating pad on the bed and I didn't know what you crave so I brought some candies and chocolates too so that you feel a little better."

I bit my lips and tried not to crack my voice.

"T-thank you J-Jungkook." I barely managed to say.

"You sure you're okay inside." He asked with worry laced in his smooth voice.

"I-I'm good. I'll be out in a moment."

"Okay. I'm making breakfast." He said and I nodded not realizing that he can't see me.