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You continued to sniff the oversized sweatshirt that hung low on one shoulder. Gilinsky's scent still lingered on it. You had worn it on his last night before he left to go on a Vans promo tour with Cam and Nash since they designed their custom line. At first, it had only hurt deep in the pit of your stomach that he was gone. But since then, it's only gotten worse. He hasn't been able to Skype you as much because he's always tired. You two had only been dating for a few months but you've fallen so fast, afraid to tell him how deep your feelings are because you don't know if he felt the same.
Needless to say, he encouraged you to stay at the home he shared with Johnson. He didn't want you to spend part of your summer alone so at least you'd be around Johnson & mutual friends most of the time. Some nights it felt great to be in Gilinsky's bed but some nights it left the worst feelings in your heart. You would remember the nights you shared in that same bed and didn't dare sleep on his side. You just wanted to wake up and have him surprise you that he's home early. But you knew you had to be a supportive girlfriend.
"(Y/N)!" You heard Johnson shout from downstairs. "Pizza's here!"
"Coming!" You shouted back.
Tonight was movie night with Johnson, Sammy, & Nate. When you walked downstairs, you could see they were passing around a blunt. Nate held it out to you but you just didn't feel like it tonight, although it would help numb and fill the void inside. You decided to stick with some good ol' comfort pizza.
"What are we watching tonight, (Y/N)? It's your turn this week," Sammy said, taking a large bite out of his pepperoni slice.
"Umm," you thought as you took a plain cheese slice out the 2nd box. "Let's watch Elysium."
"Saw it already, it was lame," Nate blurted.
Ultimately you wanted to just watch episodes of Bob's Burgers. You and Jack would watch that every night until you fell asleep together.
You shrugged. "I'm passing the baton over to Johnson, I don't know."
Sammy looks at you and his eyebrows knit together. "Everything alright, (Y/N)?"
"Mmhmm, peachy."
"Wait, hold on, i'm buzzing," Johnson said. He took out his phone and held it up.
"Duuude, what's up?" Johnson says at the screen.
"Bro!" You heard Gilinsky say. You'd recognize that voice anywhere and you sprung up to rush into the camera's view behind Johnson. "Who is that beautiful girl behind you?" His smirk made you blush.
Johnson smiles and shakes his head, handing you his phone. "It's for you, (Y/N)."
You got all giddy, took the phone and ran into the nearest room.
"Babe I miss you!" You told him.
"I miss you too. Three more weeks, hang in there," he said.
"It's been so hard here without you. It's seriously killing me."
"I know the feeling-"
"Yo (Y/N)!" You see Nash in the background, waving.
"Hey Nash!"
"(Y/N) what's up girl?" You hear Cameron's voice off-camera until Jack turns it toward him.
"Cam! Miss you guys around here. The house is getting too clean without you," you joked.
"We miss you too!" Cam says.
"Not as much as Jack does, though," Nash teases, making kissy sounds.
Jack blushes in front of the camera and shakes his head.
"Listen babe, the Uber's here. We're going to Wiz Khalifa's endorsement party."
"Whoa, really? I love Wiz!"
"If I get to hang with him, I'll get him to sign something for you." Jack smiles.
"You're the best, you know that?"
He sighs, raising one eyebrow. "I know." You both laugh and see him stand up from his seat. "Alright babe, I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"Sure thing. I lo- I-I'll see you."
Nice save on your behalf. You were hoping he didn't hear your little slip. The call ends, you sit in silence for five minutes before the sadness rushes back again. You can't help it this time, here come the tears. Sammy and Johnson must've heard you sniffling because they soon entered your room. You were sobbing uncontrollably.
"I'm sorry," you spoke through tears. "I'm a mess. I just miss him so much, I can't even explain."
Sammy pulled up the small stool from the corner and sat in front of you. He rubs your shoulders. Johnson stayed off to the side both concerned with your wellbeing and doing something on his phone. You hoped he wasn't tweeting or snapchatting about it.
"You've been sad all day (Y/N), tell me what's wrong," Sammy pleaded.
You lean forward, resting your head on Sammy's shoulder, sobbing quietly. "I'm sorry, I just never felt this way before about someone. I don't know what he does to me."
"You should get it all off your chest," Johnson said to you. "Like imagine he was here and just, I don't know, pour your heart out. Say everything you've been scared to say."
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- Meanwhile on Jack's tour bus -
Jack was fast asleep in his bunk. The moving bus rocking him gently side to side. He was shook out of his sleep when he heard his message ringtone sound off next to his head. He rubbed his eyes and sighed. It was a message from Johnson but he didn't even open it and tried to go back to sleep. Moments later, his phone rings again and finally he swipes 'Slide to unlock'.
'You should really watch this.'
The message is followed by a video. He searches for his headphones and puts them on so he doesn't disturb the other guys asleep. Once he presses play, he sees it's a video of a tearful you, holding Sammy's hand. At first, Jack was nervous, hoping it wasn't some sneaky video catching you and Sammy together. But then as the video went on, he was put at ease.
Johnson: Like imagine he was here and just, I don't know, pour your heart out. Say everything you've been scared to say.
You: (sniffles & nervously chuckles) I don't know, I guess I would say that I never want him to leave my side. That...he's my peace of mind in a world full of chaos. That...that...I love him. And I'm scared to love him because he might get scared away. Thinking I was moving too fast.
Sammy: But you can't put a timer on love, (Y/N). You just can't.
Johnson: Things just happen when they do and we, as human beings, can't exactly fight it and push it away. Everything was meant to happen for a reason.
The video goes on as he sees you look up at Johnson, grinning through your tears. Gilinsky's breathing becomes deeper & he gulps, nearly grinning along with you. He places his hand on his chest.
You: I wish he could just feel how much I love him, that's all. I swear on everything he's my sun & my moon. And since he's been gone, being in love has felt so bittersweet.
Gilinsky sighs as the video ends. "If only you knew," he whispered. He looked at the time and knew you were asleep by now. But he didn't care, he made the call anyway.
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- Back to your POV -
Your cell phone rang and you slowly opened your now-puffy eyes to roll over & answer. You didn't even check to see who was calling.
"Hello?" You faintly spoke.
"Baby?" You immediately recognized Jack's sexy raspy voice.
"Oh my God, Jack!" You gasped. "It's so good to hear your voice."
"Trust me, same here," he sniffled.
"Are you crying?"
"Not really, just a little emotional. But don't tell the guys," he chuckled.
You chuckled too. "What's going on?"
"I just called to tell you that I love you too (Y/N)."
You felt an automatic sensation of a thousand butterflies fluttering about in your gut.
"W-what? You..."
"I love you. Johnson, he...he kind of recorded you earlier tonight and sent it to me."
"That little-"
"No, it's okay. I'm glad he did. It was because a while ago I had told him that I was in love with you but didn't know how to say it. I guess we think alike." You could tell he was smiling as he spoke.
"That's why we fit together so easily," you responded.
"Definitely. I can't wait until this tour is over. We're not leaving my room for like a week, I hope you know that," he laughed.
"It's a deal," you giggled.
"So, I'm super sleepy but...stay on the phone with me? As weird as it sounds, I really miss hearing you breathe against my chest when you would spend the night."
"Of course baby." The butterflies continued to flutter as you rolled over to your other side to get cozy again. The weight on your shoulders & back had now lifted completely. You were relieved by how open you were to each other just now. And to think, after all this time, he's been loving you.
"I love you, (Y/N)."
"I love you too, Jack."
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