A Glow Of Happiness

Chapter 11. Isa

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It has almost been a week since the Halloween party. I ended up getting so drunk that night that when we came back to William's apartment I threw up. Aubrey and Nick went to sleep in William's guest room and he went to sleep in his, while I spent the whole night in the bathroom feeling like absolute shit. William tried to help me, but after I saw him kissing that girl I didn't even want to look at him so I locked myself in the bathroom. When everyone woke up the next morning I was on the couch half asleep and I used my hungover state as an excuse to me not remembering the event of the night before. Since then, I've been pretending not to remember William's kiss with another girl, and I've been acting with him as if nothing had happened. He looks pissed and relieved at the same time about the way I've been acting, but he hasn't brought it up either. I've decided that I had to push away my feelings for him. I don't want to lose him, and even if I wanted to, it would be near impossible to never see him again because of Aubrey and Nick. I decided I wanted him in my life as a friend, and that from now on I'll act like it. We'll only be friends, if that's even possible with him since he seems to run away from everyone who gets a little too close. Today's November 5th and it's my birthday. My dad called me early this morning and so did Aubrey's parents. Aubrey even woke me up with pastries, coffee, and an amazing gift. Nick and she bought me a new helmet for my motorcycle and I almost ran out of air because of how much I screamed in excitement. Tonight we are going to Nick's apartment for my birthday; it will only be the four of us since Aubrey knows I never celebrate my birthday. It's weird, how a day that should bring me happiness always ends up bringing me pain and remorse. I can never fully appreciate my birthday because it's the day my mother died. I try to shake away the thoughts as I walk towards our dorm. I just finished my class and it's now around 4:30 p.m. and I have to get ready to go to Nick's. The cold air makes me shove my hands in my pockets and I walk faster to get to my dorm. Once I make it I make my way into my room where Aubrey is getting ready.

"Hey birthday girl!" she exclaims.

I smile at her as I drop my bag on my bed.

"I'll go take a quick shower and I'll be back," I smile as I take my toiletries essentials and head out of the room.

I make my way to the shower where I turn on the water as warm as my body can take it. The water running down my face covers the small tears escaping from my eyes as I think about my mother. I rub my body as though it will take away the pain, but nothing ever could. How is it possible to miss someone you've never met? I shake my head thoroughly as I turn off the water. I get out of the shower and dry myself up before putting clothes on and heading back to my room. Once I'm in, Aubrey looks at me and hugs me tight.

"Your eyes are all puffy and red," she whispers as she hugs me tighter.

"It's never an easy day..." I trail off.

She lets go of me as she steps backward and she gives me an encouraging smile.

"I know, but let's try to make it a bit better ok?"

I nod, and I finish getting ready before we head out. Aubrey drives us to Nick's place and we get into the elevator. Once we are on his floor I follow Aubrey and she makes her way into an apartment without even knocking, and I follow her.

"Well look at that! The birthday girl!" Nick screams as he hugs me tight.

"Hey Nick," I laugh.

Nick knows about my mother, Aubrey told him so that he'd know I'm not too fond of my birthday. This means all three of them know and I'm alright with that. I see William from the corner of my eyes, and my breath gets caught in my throat when I see just how gorgeous he looks. He's wearing a pair of dark blue jeans with a burgundy crewneck that hugs his every muscle. His air is all over the place as if he'd just woken up, and his beard is freshly trimmed. I have to mentally pinch myself to remind me that we are just friends and to stop drooling over him. He takes big strides towards me and once he's close he gives me a big hug. I bury my head closer to his neck and I tightly hold onto him. I just want to melt into his body and stay this way for the rest of the night, but I feel Aubrey's stare on my back, and I hear Nick clearing his throat. I slowly let go of William who sends a small glare at Nick before smiling down at me.