Rinxharu- lost in your eye (BoyxBoy)-on hold till I'm back from overseas

Forgive me

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•Omfg guys!!!! We reached 1K like wtf
•Now I need to calm the hella down
• New character or a character you know of is entering the Rinharu fanfiction
• Should I change the cover?
• thanks to everyone for supporting it :) close to my heart all of you.

Sorry took so long, I've been having some trouble with my loved ones.
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<>Like always<>
• I don't own Free
• the Free characters
• only the characters I've made up
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•I don't own the music
Song: forgive me
Artist: Maher Zain
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-__Haru__-

The streets were quiet, excluding a couple of drunk teenagers going home. Right now I just needed to get some rest and maybe just forget about tonight. Rin is upset and I can't help that,when the culprit of the crime is me. It's a bit sad knowing your the cause of someone's sadness. When their eyes puff up or maybe their face goes blotchy, doesn't matter it's still a part of causing someone extreme sadness. Time passed and the streets started to become dead silent , you could drop a pin and it would be heard. Still I wanna bloke out any sounds, so pulled out my head phones out of my track suit pants and within a second my phone vibrated. Rin is calling but I knew this isn't the time to be yelled at. Now that I think about it what even are Rin and I? Nothing more then friends obviously because I don't swing that way. Hmm maybe frienimes

Call ended

I don't have time for his shÎt and any drama generally. Within a couple minutes the sky started crying, dripping down my face and falling to the ground. Maybe this is what I deserve, a waking up to improve myself. No, changing myself is the last thing I wanna do. Too much stress only within two hours. Time to get my mind off the drama with a little help from music which is my only saviour. Finally I plugged in the headphones into my iPhone and like always the words took me away.

[pretend Haru is singing ^_^]

I'm about to lose the battle and cross the line
I'm about to make another mistake
And even though I try to stay away
Everything around me keeps dragging me in
I can't help thinking to myself
What if my time would end today, today, today?
Can I guarantee that I will get another chance
Before it's too late, too late, too late

Forgive me... My heart is so full of regret
Forgive me... Now is the right time for me to repent, repent, repent..

Am I out of my mind?
What did I do? Oh, I feel so bad!
And every time I try to start all over again
My shame comes back to haunt me
I'm trying hard to walk away
But temptation is surrounding me, surrounding me
I wish that I could find the strength to change my life
Before it's too late, too late, too late

Forgive me... My heart is so full of regret
Forgive me... Now is the right time for me to repent, repent, repent..

I know O Allah You're the Most-Forgiving
And that You've promised to
Always be there when I call upon You
So now I'm standing here
Ashamed of all the mistakes I've committed
Please don't turn me away
And hear my prayer when I ask You to...

Forgive me... My heart is so full of regret
Forgive me... Now is the right time for me to repent, repent, repent..

" Your really good sir" a small blonde child giggled and gave me $1 " ohh sweety keep the money". The little girl nodded and slowly ran her fingers along my wrist. " you hurt yourself on the outside, trying to kill the monster on the inside" her words hit me like a brick. For some reason, a little 7 year old knew how I'm feeling " Hey kid what are you doing out alone?" She started to back away " hey don't be scared". The little girl stopped and started to sob " hey sweety what's the matter?" As the words left my mouth she grabbed onto me and hugged me tight. Without hesitation I started to slowly run my fingers through her short blonde hair which was pixie cut." calm down now tell me what's the matter", I said In my most soothing voice but she started to shaking constantly. " My sister once wanted to kill her monster but a rope stopped her" jeez poor thing. " Well now she's free, now where are your parents?" The girl turned around and pointed at a couple making out in front of a child care centre. With one look I could tell the child has a bad family at home and in public. " my parents left me when I was 14 because their opinion for my life was different to mine" I said in my most reassuring voice. Without noticing, the small blonde walked over to her parents and gave them hugs, with the patents returning it. I should stop comparing peoples parents to my own, judging others isn't how I want to get around.