Dear God,
You know how to speak to me through music.... Especially in my hardest times. Even when I don't want to listen it always seems to come back to me through my headphones.
I never want to believe that I am pretty... That I am beautiful. I just want to be better. I don't need to be "skinny" I just want to be fit. I want to be healthier. I want to eat healthier. I want to stop my horrible eating patterns. I want to look at myself in the mirror and see my potential. I know that I can be healthy if I work my butt off. I am taking that work out class every school day, so that I won't see myself as "fat". I want to see myself as beautiful. I want to wear a dress and feel like a princess. I want to wear a crown of confidence. Is it too much to ask? To be confident in anything I want to wear? (But modest is hottest I learned that)
I know you have shown me little things that tell me this. Like when I opened my book I automatically was shown Song of Songs 4:7. And I have had two songs play back to back when I wasn't even watching... It was on shuffle. Beautiful... And Just the Way You Are. I love those songs and it's weird that they are together isn't it?
How come that even when I see all of this I still think I am not ever good enough? Am I good enough?
..... later what I found out........
Did I see those numbers right? Did I actually qualify as "fit" not "fat"... Isn't there "supposed to be an "a".... Is it true that "I" don't belong in that word... "Fat". There have been my friends that told me I'm not "fat" and I never wanted to believe them. I never wanted to hear it. I guess there is no "I" in fat.... I almost wanted to cry for seeing that. I have heard that BMI is pretty much worthless. It does not actually calculate accurate results. It does not describe us. I checked "body fat percentage" and apparently I got different results. I was actually "overweight" before, but after working out for almost five months I guess it pays off. I am so happy right now.
I never knew how much music could help me. I just love that You have a special way of communicating with me.
Does anyone actually know how "this" works? Do we ever? I guess only You know.
Love Your Daughter ❤️
Love Your Little Princess 👑
~Melody💚~
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Plans (The Day Music Started to Heal Sequel)
RandomMelody is back and I told you her story was not finished.... Far from finished. She still has many struggles, and many that anybody can relate to. She still holds onto her music, but can her song melodies help her this time? She has many songs for d...
