Dear God,
Am I a princess? I do not feel like a princess. I do not wear a crown. I do not live in a castle. I do not have servents who clean my room (haha I wish sometimes yet not at the same time I like privacy). I do not wear fancy clothes. I wear jeans, sweatshirts, leopard shoes, and I crazy colored outfits. I am outta my mind for music, bands, and having fun. I think it would be hard being an actual princess, but it does look like fun. At least I would not have to deal with my troubles right now. The ones I have to deal with everyday.
There is this cute guy in my class.... at least I thought he was cute. Yeah sure he is smart, funny, looks at me and calls me beautiful, sings in chorus, and other "cute aspects", but there is something that does not "feel" right. I know you will give me an amazing man one day, but can he be "the one"? I am sooooo confused. I want to know. I want to see his eyes. His eyes I know one day will look at me with trueness and he will pursue me the same way you have pursued my heart. With passion but with patience. That is how I want to be treated... that is how I should be treated. That is how I should be pursued.
Today I felt weird. I was walking to class only thinking about that guy, and I wanted to know should I see if he likes me? Should I ignore him? Should I laugh? Should I cry? I want to know an answer. I need to hear that special song that helps me all the time I am confused about this... I am listening to my shuffle music. I do not know when the song will come on next, and I hate messing with the playlist. I will just look it up on youtube. I turn my phone on and as I hit the button to bring up the screen... You gave me the words I needed to hear.... it's the song. Then right after I hear the sweet notes with the lyrics that are just shining... Shimmering... Splendid. They make me want to dance in the middle of the street, and say those cheesy lines. I know You will give me a guy... That will Love Me Like the Movies.
Then a few weeks later I am doing homework when my cat decides to play with a wrapper I tried to throw away. It's funny how she tumbles and rolls and tosses to around. She bats it next to my dresser and starts pawing her little paw under my dresser. She brings something out. It was a little shiny circular thing. It... It... It's my purity ring that I have been looking for since the concert. I thought I lost it there. My mom got me a chain for Christmas to keep it on, but I told her I lost it... Again! I lost it at least 5 times (okay this is the 6th but) since I got it, but it had always seem to find a way back to me. This time I thought I really lost it, so if I couldn't go back and get it MANY miles away, I'd get a "better" one with personalized message on it. Pretty right? I guess You were trying to tell me a message about finding this particular ring. I am the chosen one. I might not be a wizard, but it seems You are trying to tell me a message. This ring could represent my future "one". It might not be "personalized", but it was chosen for me! It has a Bible verse on it that is amazing, and could say how my guy will be amazing and Christian and put You first. It has scratches, and nobody is "perfect". It is silver, so they could be pure. I've lost it, and we might fight once in a while (if we ever do it'll be over silly stuff I know). I know some of my friends that have lost their rings many times and then turned around and got new ones. Then they turn around and find the other 4 they had bought before... One at a time they bought them and lost them. One day they found all of them. I don't want to have many rings. I will only have one... THIS one. NO this ring is my only one and has been for a few years now. I "plan" to keep it on my chain this time. I know I'll lose it knowing me, but it'll come back to me. It always seems to. I guess that means You will have "one" for me, and me alone. I might be Outta my mind, but one things for sure I will have one love in my life that you will give me a lifetime to be with. So until I find the day when I can say, staring in his gorgeous eyes I've waited my whole life... For that night. I don't know his name....................... Yet.
It's hard to believe that my husband is actually out there, and my heart belongs to them already. You have created them for me. I was created for him. We were created for each other.
I do not want one that will just want me to love, but to have fun with. We will take it VERYYYY slow. He will have fun more than romantic. I want more of a brother at first. We will learn to trust each other. Of course we will have to have those sweet moments, and when we dance in the rain, we will save a special spot for you right in the middle between us. We will dance and sing in the rain. It will look like they do in the movies... but this time it is real. It will be my own story. It will be my own fairytale. You will be my author and write it out... I will read it and scream it from the rooftops again and again. I promise I will let you... write my movie. This movie is called life.
You are loving and only want what is best I know that. Why is it so hard to wait? I think you are saying that the best things come to those who wait... gahhh why do I have to ask questions that I know the answer to? I don't want to do this anymore.
I want to have fun, act silly, say those cheesy lines again and again and again. We will be that couple that everyone says that we should date. Act like a kid again. Who set the "rules" on how a couple should be in a relationship? Why do we need to call it a relationship? Can't we just be friends unitl he asks me to be his forever? Even then we act like we are still kids again. Who says we have to grow up? I want to dream everyday until I find my Prince Charming in the right time and place. I want to dream of what his eyes will look like staring back at me. Making me blush. Making me cry that I have finally found him. He will then "ruin" the perfectly romantic by making a funny face and we can't help but burst out laughing. We will create our own fairytale...
...with those leopard shoes.
I am not afraid to say that I am waiting.
Love Your Daughter ❤️
Love Your Little Princess 👑
~Melody💚~
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