Losing my real self

His last words and Anonymous.

Working at the restaurant as a waitress has been tiring and fun, I managed to get a small apartment to stay in and continued with school so I don't become a school drop out, luckily dad had applied for a scholarship and therefore there isn't a headache with paying school levies, work has ended and I change out of my uniform into a casual one picking up my belongings and I walk out of the restaurant to a coffee shop to get my mind sorted,

"Hi what may I offer you miss", the waiter asks
I lift my head and I was shocked to see Richard standing there looking straight into my eyes for my order, I shift uncomfortably in my seat wondering if he would recognize me,

"Jane??", he says and my heart leaps, I shake my head smiling at him

"Jane?? who's Jane??", I ask pretending.

"Jane Thompson, it's you for sure, those brown eyes and cute lips and why did you change your hair color black-suited you better ", he rambled and I sat there wide-eyed staring at him with my mouth opened

"Shut your mouth, flies may enter", he continued and I shut my mouth looking down.

"Why did you just disappear, everyone is worried about you and your Dad's burial is coming soon, you are his only child, why to kill yourself by hiding what are you hiding from ", he rebukes me as I just sat saying nothing when I had finally found my voice I spoke out

"I am not hiding, I just want a new life for myself, I don't want anyone to feel pity for me, I want to do things on my own ", I replied.

"Yes on your own, that's what breaks us, we can't do everything on our own, we all need help from one another to be strong, it might be true that I might not know what you are going through but everyone is ready to help, you make everyone sad at your sudden disappearance, I may not be family but it hurts to see my neighbors, your family in a really bad state, you have to go back, think about it, don't be selfish think about those that care about you ", he says

"Care?? who cares??", I ask chuckling

"Everyone cares," he replies

"I'm not going back anywhere or to anyone ", I say standing to my feet facing him

"Jane!!", he calls out
"Excuse me," I say

I storm to the bus station picking a bus heading straight home, I had this same encounter with Philip, he nearly scooped me in his arms to drive me to my home near his house but I got it and fled, I have been ignoring him and giving him cold shoulder, I don't want anyone meddling with my life, I just wanted to start anew, I place my head on the bus's window and soon drift to sleep leaving my heavy thoughts to when I would be sane and sober.

I climb the long stairs to my apartment and when I had made it to my door I was breathing heavily, my feet feel tired from standing and walking around for hours on high heels, just as I pushed my door opened a white envelope slipped unto the ground, my heartbeat loudly and I was wondering who had been in my apartment or maybe someone might be hiding in the apartment, I pick up my high heel in one hand aiming for anyone in my apartment, I heard a shuffling sound and I snap my head swiftly to the noise but there wasn't anyone, I walk slowly searching the small apartment but there isn't even a place for one to hide, I dropped the shoe and I felt something brush past my legs I jumped in fright screaming out loud just then I heard a "meow", and I slumped to the floor.

"Mia!!!you scared the hell out of me ", I said brushing its fur as it nuzzled its nose breathing in my scent, I pick up the envelope tearing it and in it is a letter and the only one word, it reminded me of my father's last words I never had the strength to read I quickly go through my belongings in search of the brown envelope and tore it anxiously,

It held a neatly folded paper and my hands shook as I unfolded the paper to reveal its content.

"FORGIVE "

I frown a bit not knowing what he meant by that, forgive?? who do I forgive, who has ever wronged me, I felt sad at that moment for not being able to know what he meant by that, I brought out the letter which is written with very beautiful handwriting and I was wondering who it may be

Dear Jane,

I know you would be wondering who it is that would send you a letter, I am someone in your mind always even if it seems I never was, I am at the darkest side of your heart and I have always been a hair away, don't worry about a thing I am always there to protect you, I am so close but you won't ever see me, I don't deserve it all I need from you is to stop running away from your fears, stop losing your inner self, you have always been a beautiful soul and I don't want you walking around with your lights turned off, the world needs your bubbling self to light up a very darkened world, I know it would be late before you read this and even now I can see you reading this letter with your brows furrowed, smile Jane, there's not a thing to worry about.

Yours best,
Anonymous.

A mysterious world we live in, who could this be, I look around my apartment but there's no one, I remove my clothes and have a cold bath smearing powder on my body as I always loved to do my way of releasing stress, but of all days I felt a bit light-headed though there is still something or maybe nothing I worry about I jumped unto my bed and soon I drift to sleep.

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