The Last Day- A Love Story

Chapter One- The Concert

The strong scent of Cody’s cologne filled my nostrils. It smelled like heaven to me even though there are several scents mixed in with it like cigarette smoke and food. I kept his pace as I walked behind him
through the large mass of people watching the band perform on the stage. I decided to take him to see his favorite band, Thousand Foot Krutch for his birthday as a present from me. He seemed to love it but I could see there was something else in his eyes that he was hiding. He looked back at me to make
sure that I was still behind him, since I was a good 2 inches shorter than him. I smiled back at him with a
sad look in my eyes as we continued to walk through the crowd. I felt the warm salty tears roll down my
cheeks as I cried softly. I continued to keep his pace as I hoped to myself that he couldn’t hear me crying.
I never want him to see me crying, I try my hardest to remain strong for his sake. We finally reached the
gate where only the visitors can enter and exit through to the venue. I felt like the whole world started
spinning rapidly, and I could barely breathe. Great, a panic attack. It’s been years since I’ve had a panic
attack this strong. I collapsed to the ground, like I had been hit with something very hard in the chest. I
could hear him calling my name, trying everything to get my attention. I wanted to answer his calls, but
all my strength was gone.
Things began to get quiet, and all I could see was darkness. I wanted to cry out, to let Cody know
that I could hear him. A week passed, and I was able to fully come back to reality. I woke up, with bright white lights
shining in my eyes, blinding me. I shifted slightly in the bed I was in, trying to get comfortable. I looked
across the room to see Cody sitting in the chair at the end of my bed. He looked up at me, smiling. He
stood up from the chair he was in and walked towards me, carefully studying my facial expression. He
spoke as he sat on the edge of my bed, making himself comfortable, “ How are you feeling? I was worried
that you wouldn’t come back to reality. The doctors kept telling me that you wouldn’t make it out of the state of mind you were in. But
I knew that you weren’t going down without a fight.” I sighed and said,” Yeah, I didn't want to give up
completely. I never want to leave you, I need you. You make the pain fade that I feel everyday. What
happened while I was out of it?” He looked at me and smiled slightly. Saying, “ Well, your mom came by earlier. The doctors
wouldn't let her stay here with you, so she had to go home. And I've been here watching over you, hoping
you would come to for about a week now.”
My eyes darkened, and I looked away from Cody's eyes. I couldn’t look into his eyes at that
moment. He shifted closer to me and said, “ Your mom isn’t doing very well at all since you’ve been
brought in here. I heard that she won’t let anyone talk to her, and she won’t even leave the house. She
wouldn’t even let me talk to her to update her on your condition.” I looked up at him with tear stained
eyes, my breath going shaky and uneven in my chest. I struggled to speak but managed to coke out
between sobs,” M-my m-mom i-is d-d-depressed because o-of m-me? I-I f-feel like I-I’m a b-burden on
h-her, s-she doesn’t d-deserve m-me r-ruining her l-life…” I trailed off with my last sentence and stared
off into the distance, feeling like my whole world was slowly ending with each shaky breath I took in. He
looked at me worriedly and spoke, “ Gracyn… Please don’t feel like you are a burden to your mother. She
loves you, very much. I think the very thought of you being in the hospital is what bothered her, it isn’t
you I can promise you that.” I looked up at him sobbing louder, and the pain in my chest was getting
stronger, “ I-if i-it w-w-wasn’t f-for m-me, s-she w-w-wouldn’t b-be i-in t-this s-situation… I-I w-want
t-to b-believe y-y-you, b-but I-I c-can’t…”