Don't test me

Chapter Twenty Three

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I never told anyone. Not even Hotch when I got back in the car. I was the only one who knew, and I had a plan to keep it that way.

As I walked into the FBI building a feeling of guilt pressed against my chest, weighing me down. I felt very bad about not telling anyone, especially the baby's father... In the end, Spencer most likely wouldn't have wanted this child anyways, so it doesn't matter when I tell him. All that matters is that it stays a secret, at least until Mecca can have Sam back in her arms.

"Agent Y/n, are you alright?" Hotch said. I had spaced out of our round table meeting, not even paying attention to what they were discussing.

I adjusted myself in my chair then looked up at him, "I am alright, sorry."

He sighed and continued sharing information. I felt Spencer's hand find its way onto my thigh and I was immediately taken back, I glared at him and he let go. After a few minutes of us discussing things, we all decided to go work from our desks to sort out all the materials we had found at the sites.

I stood up and grabbed all my things, as everyone was walking out of the room I heard the door close and I looked up, Spencer was standing at the door. He looked upset, and I felt my heart drop down to my stomach, "What?" I asked,

"Are you okay?" He asked, slowly walking closer to me,

I looked out of the window, Emily and Morgan were watching us, "They're watching."

"I don't care." His eyes were reflecting the light above us, and as I starred into them all I wanted to do was cave. Tell him, just do it.

"I am fine Spencer, really." I grabbed all my stuff and started walking to the door, I knew I couldn't tell him, and especially not here. I heard him huff and I grabbed the door, pulling it open and quickly, almost speed walking to my desk. Before I could even get off the catwalk I heard a voice coming from Hotch's office.

"Agent y/n." I stopped in my tracks and turned around. Walking into his office.

"Yes?" I asked him. I stood at his door, waiting for him to say something.

He raised his eyebrow, "Are you alright?"

I sighed, "Yes I am fine."

"Are you sure?" He asked again, this time with more persistence in his voice,

"Hotch I promise I am fine." I smiled at him and he waved me out of his office,

I turned back around and walked to my desk. I sighed and then sat down, pulling up my computer. The first thing I saw was a notification on my calendar, 'Call the doctor's.' I sighed and grabbed my phone, and walked out into the hall, dialing the number I already had saved into my phone.

"Hello this is LB's Doctor's office, my name is Kelly how may I assist you today?"

I looked around to make sure no one could see or hear me before answering, "Hi, my name is Y/n L/n, I just found out I am pregnant and I would like to schedule an appointment."

"Oh, well unfortunately we're booked full, the only time we have is at 11 AM today."

I looked at the time, it was thirty till 11. I took in a deep breath and thought about the options, but in the end, there was only one. "Alright, I'll take that appointment."

"Great, can I help you with anything else?"

I paused and peeped my head around the corner, looking at Spencer who was busy working on the case, "Yeah that will be all thank you."