Don't test me

Chapter Five

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Just Once... 

Yeah, that was thrown way out of the window. Thanks to Spencer's addicting self, I am now stuck to him like glue. Our "Just Once" became about 20 more. We had sex regularly, after work, on the plane, some days he'd just show up at my apartment. Our friendship was still intact though, however there were a few more dirty jokes added into the mix. However, I never truly got to see his darker side, he wouldn't ever do anything to hurt me.

I thought back to one of our previous conversations, 

"You know I am into pain, right?" I said, painting. Spencer had just got off of me, and was laying next to me.

He sat up, and looked at me, "I could probably tell by you screaming harder at me every five seconds." He laughed,

I threw my hand up and hit him on the chest, "Oh, shut up. You don't do it anyways, so why do I even try?" I sarcastically said,

"I don't know if you want to see that side of me, Y/n." 

I tilted my head, "Oh I really do. You're starting to seem all too vanilla to me." 

His hand found my thigh and he squeeze tightly, "Maybe I will one day, catch you off guard maybe?" 

Although I did want to see his kinky side, I knew the excitement of it one day just showing up was all but too intriguing. "Fine." I sighed, 

He chuckled, "Do you know why I call you Little one?" I shook my head, "Because according to research that has been done on women, it's one of the top three nicknames that women like to be called."

"Well that's-"

"Oh, and according to Urban Dictionary it means, a very lovable and adorable person. People love to hug this person because she well into their arms because of her small size."

I rolled my eyes at him and looked away, "I am not small,"

"Mhm.." 

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Although it's not a very smart move to have sex with your coworker, I couldn't doubt that Spencer was a decently healthy way to let out some... pent up emotions, and it was kind of thrilling running around behind our friends backs. 

Something I did notice was that Spencer would never say my name during sex, almost like he was detaching my real name from the act. He started calling me 'Little one', which I was fine with, but his reasoning for it just made it feel different. I couldn't explain it, and I really didn't want to. 

We have been on a case for almost two weeks, and it was very stressful. I was longing for Spencer's touch almost the whole time, we never had any alone time, let alone relax time either. 

JJ even started giving us looks when we were around each other, and we got worried that she knew and had to step back from each other for a while.

But now here we are. In my car, driving to my apartment. The whole trip was silent, Reid's hand rested on my leg as I grew more and more nervous. Every time I was with him I worried about how he was feeling. We aren't a couple, and we for sure aren't in love or anything, but I wanted Spencer to know how much I cared. To me, it felt like this was more than sex, but then again it was just sex, right? 

I was overthinking this way too much, there's no way Spencer would want to ruin our friendship like that. I mean, I think it's great we both found each other again after all the years apart, but I really don't know what to make of our... hobby?