Love And Rejection, Both At First Sight. - Taekook Love Story (2nd Version)

25 - Journal Entries 01

Jungkook was bored. Today is his day off for the week and he was very bored at home. Taehyung is at the tech shop and Jimin is also busy with some work.

He was in his garden when Jin came and spoke with him.

"Kookie, go and put these side dishes in Tae's fridge." Jin said as he handed over few containers to Jungkook. "Only the top one needs to be go in to the freezer."

Jin has the spare key of Taehyung's house and Jungkook thought it would be a good idea to go and wait for Taehyung. He is not due from work for few hours though.

After storing the side dishes, Jungkook walked around the house, tidying up the place a bit. He wondered around a bit more before ending up in Taehyung's bedroom.

He plopped on the bed and thought about how Taehyung doesn't like to sleep in the bed. But only when he's alone. Taehyung sleeps on the bed when Jungkook is there.

He was absent mindedly going over the bedside drawer when he noticed a thick book. He opened it a bit to see curiously.

It seems to be used like a personal journal and the first entry was from last year August.

August 15th

Yoona, I'm so lonely. Why did you leave me like this?

Jungkook felt his breath hitched and he turned to the next page with a shaking hand.

August 16th

I'm tired of running. If you knew this was gonna happen, why didn't we ran away in the first place? At least we would have each other. I'm ok to spend the rest of my life running if I had you with me. Alone, it doesn't seem to worth the effort. What kind of a life would this be?

Jungkook flipped few more pages. His heart stopped after reading one of the entries.

August 20th.

This is not gonna work. I won't be able run forever Yoona. Shall I come to you? I'm tired of everything. Soobin says that I'm being blamed for your death so half the Seoul is after me. Please Yoona, I just want this to end.

Jungkook vision blurred as his eyes filled with tears. All the entries are so full of pains and struggles.

August 23rd.

We changed locations. Not that we stayed in one place for more than 2 days but this time we changed cities. I don't understand how they keep finding us. But Soobin says that it's to be expected as everyone will try to gain a personal favor from Sunghoon. We just have to keep moving till we remove all our traces.

August 28th.

Soobin has been teaching me self-defense and he says I'm getting pretty good at it, considering the small time I practiced. Never thought a day might come when my survival depended on my fighting ability. At least it keeps me distracted from all the other crap in my life.

September 02nd.

Moved again. There were few suspicious looking people around the store that we went yesterday. Soobin just grabbed our stuff and we went. Another new city. I don't know which lie we are gonna tell this time. I'm running out of ideas. So far we have been brothers, lovers, uncle and nephew. I don't talk to people at all since I'm worried I might mess up the story.

September 11th.

Soobin bought us a bike. I don't know from where but it seems he used the money from the account and paid in cash. He says it won't be traceable since the account is in his friend's name. I love the bike. It's quite noticeable but goes well with the 'brothers on a cross country trip' story. And I think we are sticking with that now. We didn't encounter anyone suspicious for a while now. I think Soobin is getting relaxed too.

September 19th.

Soobin seems to be edgy. He's not making eye contact with me. He seems to be troubled about something. When I asked if there is anything wrong, he said no. And it can't be that they found me. Even I can't remember the names of the cities that we went to. There's so many.

September 20th.

Soobin left. He said that the trail is pretty secured for now and that I should be able to carry on by myself. I didn't say anything except thanking him for looking after me all this time. He told me the story between you two. No wonder you trusted him so much.

September 21st

Well I'm alone from today. Didn't realize how much I grew fond of Soobin, hope the kid has a good life. The chances of meeting him again is close to zero. I kind of miss him. We have been together for some time now. It's weird to be alone.

All the entries pretty much seems to be same afterwards. Taehyung has moved from town to town, sometimes giving different names. He would always practice his self-defense techniques.

January 03rd.

Today's our first anniversary. It's been a full year from I saw you first. I wish you were here to celebrate. On impulse, I brought your Favorite lemon cake. Although I have known you only for a short time, I loved you will all my heart. I don't know whether I'll be able to love someone else like that. I don't know if I'll be able to keep my promise to you. Well, here's to us, happy anniversary Yoona. I love you.

Jungkook couldn't read anymore as he was crying so much. Taehyung has suffered so much, alone. No wonder he was pushing Jungkook away. Jungkook remembered the something Taehyung said to him before.

"I live in a hell. I can't drag you down here."

Yes. He has lived in a hell all this time. Jungkook thought as he cried to his heart's content.