Seek

Fading

"He who feels everything fades away..."

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KHRYZ'S POINT OF VIEW

"It's been a year Khryz, I miss you so much, Bal. Go home. I want you to meet my son." I smiled as I heard my brother's voice he sounded like a kid who lost his candy. I miss him. I miss them. 

"Bal, I'm enjoying my travel. Okay? I will go home soon." I heard his deep sigh. Not again Kryp.

"Hindi mo parin ba siya nakakalimutan?" Here we are again. I close my eyes when the wind blew in my direction. 

"Kryp. It's not that easy. But I'm in the process. I need to go. Goodnight there. I miss you too. Take care of your son, Chimon, and your husband." With that, I ended the call. I look up to the sky the beautiful clouds make my feelings better. I placed my right hand on my chest exactly where my heart is.

"Konti nalang, Khryz. Just wait a little bit." I whispered and turn my gaze to the beautiful ocean of "Utheemu" of Maldives. It's so alive. It is so peaceful. I wiped my tears away. Lagi nalang akong umiiyak lagi nalang. I want to feel numb. I want to forget the pain. It's been a year but I'm still stuck. My heart still beats for him. Walang araw na hindi ko s'ya napapanaginipan. But in my dream we're happy. He keeps telling me that he loves me. Which is painful for me. Because it's not true. I'm sure he's happy now with his girls. 

"J-just wait sing. I will forget you too..." I whispered while looking at the peaceful ocean.

SING POINT OF VIEW

"Ma-aaf kurey, did you ever see this man?" I asked. The man looked at the picture that I was shown to him. (Ma-aaf kurey, means excuse me.)

"Noon... Ma-aafu kurey.." '(no... I'm sorry..' )

"Shukuriyaa" (Thankyou.) I said. I sat on the bench and wiped my sweat. My feet starting to get hurt because I've been asking and looking for Khryz for the whole day. I'm in the Maldives. I stop contacting the investigator that I paid because I found out Khryz doing anything so that no one can find him even Kryp.  A year passed but I still looking for him. I stood up again and starts looking for him but my feet suddenly weaken. that cause me to fall to the ground. My sight began to blur.

"K-khryz." I blinked twice. It's him. I tried to stand up but I can't feel my legs anymore. People started to gather around me. "K-hryz." He was looking in my direction but he can't see me because people are blocking my way. 

"Khyz—" All went black.

KHRYZ'S POINT OF VIEW

"What's happening there?" I whispered. People are panicking. Then later on. An ambulance came.

"What happened to him?"  I asked myself. There was a man that passed out I think. They're carrying him to the ambulance. I can't see his face but my heart stopped when I saw the same wristwatch that I gave to sing. It's a limited edition. Only a few people owned that. I shrugged my head. It's not Sing because Sing has a good body build but that man who's thin looks like he has a sickness.

"Stop Khryz. Stop." I hissed to myself and continue walking. 

SING POINT OF VIEW

"In your condition, you should stop wandering around." The doctor said. But my mind is blank. 

"Are you listening to me, sir?" He asked I just nod to him even though I don't understand anything. As a doctor left my hospital room. I remove the IV fluid that they attached to me. I stand up right away but my legs are like jelly.

"S-sing you can do it." I grab the jacket from my bed. I wear it and went out to the hospital. I don't know how I escaped but I don't care. I'm walking with my barefoot. I need to go back to that place maybe Khryz is there. As I reached the place no one was there it was too dark because it was night. I sat on the bench and massage my foot. Look around wishing that I could see him. I hugged myself as the wind blew. I saw the view of the shore it's beautiful. It's like a sky because of the blue things that shine on the shore. But instead of feeling so captivated because of the scenery that I saw. I felt empty. I looked up when my tears flowed. I want to stop it but I don't want to waste my energy anymore. 

"W-why?" I whispered.

"W-why me?" Para akong sinasaksak sa sobrang sakit nang nararamdaman ko. "I just want to see him... W-why it's so hard?" 

"If I don't have this sickness. I-I'm sure I already saw him. Pero nahihirapan ako dahil dito." I hit my head. I don't care if it's hurt. 

"W-why?" 

"Why did I feel?..." Sumisikip ang dibdib ko. Hindi ako makahinga sa bigat. "The more I chase him..." Tumingin ako sa dagat na puno ng pait. "The more I lose him?" 

"I don't want to s-surrender.." I whispered.

"It's slowly fading.." I laughed. Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko.

"SA DAMI-DAMI NG SAKIT BAKIT ITO PA?!" I yelled but I know no one can hear me. No one can notice that tonight someone feels lost. Is someone asking God why? Someone might die. 

"Pwede namang cancer.."

"P-wede namang i-iba nalang.."

"H-hindi ganito. Ang h-hirap kasi..." 

"L-lumpuhin n-n'yo nalang ako, please..." I cried harder. Gusto kong iiyak lahat. I wiped my tears.

"W-why you give me this d-damn sickness. T-that causing m-me to forget everything." Bumigay na ako. I ended up kneeling on the ground and punching it. 

"W-why do I need to forget everything? Why do I need to wake u-up asking myself who? and why?... It's scary. Waking up you forgot everything and the next day you remembered. H-how pathetic my life is?" I end up looking for Khryz for f*cking year and until now I keep losing him because of my disease. One day I will wake up and forget everything. Crying in the corner until fall asleep and wake up again with memories. 

"K-khryz... Stop running... Because I'm slowly fading.."

"E-everything i-is slowly fading.."