Seek

Two kinds of death

"Love is love, it's  not pain, nor time, it's feeling..."

"Focus on the present, not on the future..."

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KHRYZ'S POINT OF VIEW

"Khryz. Bal. Are you sure about this?." I don't know how many times Kryp already asked me the same question.

"Bal... My answer will not be going change. I will marry Sing today." I firmly said. And continue fixing my hair for the event today. I rushed everything and now it's ready. My tears wants to stream but I didn't let it.  I should be happy. I will not be going to ruin this day just because of the pain and doubts. I checked my time it was already time to go to the event. I'm sure Sing is already waiting. My phone is dead batt so I can't contact him. Kryp's phone rang so he excused himself to answer the call. I was left and the room and I can't help but to stare at myself in the mirror. My eyes are sad. But my lips are smiling. Sino bang niloko ko? I can't be happy because my happiness is suffering. But I need to keep my promise. I will smile no matter what.

When Kryp came back his looks were so tense. And he's gulping many times which makes me nervous too. I don't want to overthink. I don't want to. "K-khryz—"

"Tell me what's wrong?"

"Sing.."

"W-what happened?" No, please...

"H-he—"

"Tell me! What happened to him!" I yelled that makes him startled. My tears start falling.

"H-he is missing. His mom said. H-he woke up. He doesn't remember everything and he ran away. Everyone is looking for him." After hearing that everything got blank. My twin keeps talking but I can't understand it. Something pierced me inside. Gusto ko lang naman sumaya pero bakit ganito? I wiped my tears away and smile at Kryp which makes him stop. And look at me with pity. 

"L-let's go to the wedding hall," I said. 

"K-khryz—" I gestured for him to stop. 

"Sing, promise that he will wait at the altar."

"B-but Sing isn't ther—"

"Ross waited for you for 5 years without any words. I will wait for him." Natahimik ito.

"That's different—"

"It's the same. Your husband did that because he loves you so much. The difference only is. Instead of Sing. I will be the one who will wait for him at the altar." And after saying that Kryp and I went to the wedding place. I smile bitterly when I saw our guesses in panic. I was inside the groom's car. They are all worried.

"K-khryz—"

"I will go out now." After saying that I went out to the car. And walk inside the wedding hall. All people were eyeing me with sympathy. But I don't care. Hindi ko kailangan ang awa nila. I want to Sing right now. I walk until I reached the altar where Sing was supposed to be waiting for me.

"Khryz" I just give Ross a small smile. Even others. I don't know how many hours passed but I still stay in the hall as the guests were starting to leave the place.