Seek

Memories

"Smiling is the way we made others see that we're better. But also, smiling is a great weapon to hide the pain..."

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SING POINT OF VIEW

"I'm here don't be afraid of the results." I slowly nodded to Khryz sentence. He holds my hand tightly. I'm laying in the CT scan machine. I already know what's the result is. Ayokong lokohin ang sarili ko. Hindi na ako umaasang isang milagro ang mangyayari sa 'kin.

"I'm not afraid, because you're here beside me." He gives me an encouraging smile. That makes my nervousness fade away. I shifted my gaze to Ross, who is smiling while watching us.

"This won't hurt you, Sing. Just relax." Ross said. I nodded.

"We will be going to start. Khryz, you need to go outside of the room." Khryz looked at me and gives me thumbs up. I smiled at him and made him see that I'm okay. When Khryz left the room. My smile disappeared in an instant. I can't help but groan in pain. My head is aching too much. Khryz will not be going to hear me because this room has no windows and it's soundproof. I don't want him to see me in pain. 

"It's hurt?" Ross asked.

"Y-yes, damn much."

"Try to close and open your right palm." I tried what he said but I can't.  Ross gets something metal-like stick and he holds my hand he used the metal to press it into my fingers.

"I-i don't feel anything." Ross gives me a sad expression. "Thank you..." I said to him.

"Thank you for keeping my s-secret." Ross knows it. He's a doctor and he noticed me and it happened that mom knew him and makes him my doctor for almost 2 years from now. I asked him to hide it from everyone.

"You're not welcome. Not until you get better." I chuckled as I heard that.

"Be ready. I will scan your brain." I closed my eyes. I don't feel anything. I felt like I'm floating but I need to hide it. I don't want Khryz to be worried.

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"After 2 hours the results of all tests that we did to him will come out,"  Nagpasalamat ako kay Ross pagkatapos n'yang sabihin 'yon. I'm fixing my clothes. I'm buttoning my polo. While Khryz was talking to Ross.

"You can eat outside for a while. I will just call you if it's already out. Excuse me for now I have another patient." P'Ross bid goodbye to us.

"Let go," I said to khryz but he didn't even move he was looking at me with a serious expression.

"W-why?" He took a deep sigh and walk towards me. He stopped in front of me and fix my polo. Sh*t my buttons are not in the right places.

"Kung nahihirapan ka, tell me. Okay." And he hugged me. My heart is pounding. "You are not fighting alone Sing. You have me. You have everyone." That makes me smile. I'm lucky to have them specially Khryz. We ended up going to the nearest restaurant to the hospital.

"I want—" Khryz cut me off before I am able to finish my words. 

"You will have salad and a fruit shake." My eyes widen.

"W-what—"

"No, buts my love. You need to be healthy." Love? Mahal? Iniirog? Napakagat ako sa labi. Kinikilig ako.

"Yes, boss." I even saluted to him na ikinatawa niya. I regret agreeing with him. I feel like I'm a goat right now. My food is too leafy.

"What are you waiting for? love." He asked with a sweet tone. I frown while looking at him enjoying his orders. Crabs, meats, and rice that's all my favorites. I looked at my food it's all color green.