drawn to you; jaden hossler

21; relapse

"Loving you had consequences," I finished the last note of my song for my Instagram live, and was grinning at all of the feedback.

"Well, clearly you guys like that one, so it might have to be on the album..." I said with a smile, "Alright guys, remember that I have a new single dropping tonight, called Mirors. I wrote it a couple of months ago, but it really means a lot to me, so go check it out. Bye, love you guys."

I ended the live and got up from the desk in my room. It was already 5 pm, so I didn't really have too much time to waste.

The guys insisted that they wanted to throw an album release party for me, and I didn't exactly say no to it.

I decided that I wanted to go treat myself, so I went out to go get my hair and nails done with my time to waist.

I just redid the blonde in my hair to make it a little bit more platinum, and then I got slightly long acrylics.

When I got back home it was 9 o'clock, so I started getting ready almost instantly. The party was only starting at 10:30 since the release was at 12.

I came  across a tight white dress and I instantly froze. The dress instantly took me back to the days that Jaden and I went on to the lookout point. That night was extremely beautiful and magical.

I need to stop thinking of him.

I took one more look at the dress, and something in me was itching me to put it on. I reassured myself that I wanted to look good for Noah, but part of me knew that I just wanted Jaden to see me in it.
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I walked down the stairs at 10:30 on the dot, and people were already crowding our kitchen and living room area.

Avani, Addison, and Nessa came up to me almost instantly, giving me hugs and telling me they were happy that I was home.

I smiled, "I missed you guys, too."

"You look so stunning," Avani said, grabbing my hand and spinning me around into a twirl. I laugh, "Look at you guys."

I felt two arms snake around my waist, and for a second, just for a second, I didn't think it was Noah. When I looked over my shoulder, I smiled, "Hi."

"Hi," Noah grinned, placing a kiss on my cheek, "You look really good, Mase. Like, really, really good." he slightly whispered into my ear.

I smiled and turned around so I was facing him, "Thank you ... Noah."

I tried to get the word 'baby' out but I just couldn't. It didn't feel right if I wasn't saying it to Jaden. It just didn't.

Noah smiled politely, "Of course. I'm going to go by the boys, I'll see you later?" I nodded and he walked off, making me turn back around to the girls.

"Are you kidding? You and Noah are a thing?!" Addison asked me excitedly, jumping up and down, "I ship you guys so hard."

I felt my cheeks heating up, "We're just taking things slow for now. I mean, I did just get out of a relationship."

"You guys are still cute though," Nessa added, making my cheeks extra red.
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About an hour of partying later, there was already only 20 minutes until the song release. I was beyond excited and couldn't wait for the world to finally hear my song.

I can't even describe the amount of joy it brings me to have the world listen to my music, even if I was anxious while waiting for positive feedback.

I hadn't yet spotted Jaden, which I was kind of glad about. I mean, what if seeing him caused a fight? That didn't really matter, though, because I didn't think he had the balls to show up at MY release party, him or Mads.