Everything's Changed. (Akaashi X Reader)

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You woke up that morning not getting much asleep that night, you kept replaying last nights events in your head.

You eventually sat up and noticed that Akaashi was still passed out cold.
So your tried to be quiet while changing your oxygen tank for a new one.
Once you were finished, you reached for your phone.

1 message from Bo:)

You opened your messages.

Bo:) : hey you awake?
(sent @9:20am)

Y/n!! :) : yeah come to my room, Akaashi's still sleeping though.

Bo:) :Ouuu😏😏

You left him on read as you shook your head.
You grabbed a water bottle and started to chug it, as your throat killed.

It wasn't too soon when Bokuto was knocking at your door.
You opened it to see him smiling.

You motioned him in but told him to keep quiet.

"How do you feel?" You ask him in a whisper.

"Actually pretty good. Kuroo helped me to bed last night apparently."

"You don't remember?"

He scratched his head. "Not really.."

You shook your head at him.
"I wonder if Akaashi remembers the night..."

"Probably not, he was just as wasted as I was."

Your heart sank into your chest.

What If he doesn't remember...

You looked over to Akaashi who was now fluttering his eyes open. He held his head in pain.

"Hey hey hey sleepy head."

"Bokuto-san..inside voice." Akaashi mumbled.

You looked over to Bokuto. "I think he's hungover."

Bokuto nodded.
"I hope you don't mind Akaashi, Kuroo slept in your bed last night."

Akaashi looked around, and noticed where he was.
"Wait why am I in y/n's room?"

You looked down at the ground sad.

So he doesn't remember...

"Y/n took you home silly, you were wasted."

Akaashi sat up. "I don't remember anything..."

You kept your gaze on the ground.

Why am I sad? This is what you wanted right y/n?

Akaashi slowly got up from the bed and started to walk out the door.
Closing it behind him.

Bokuto looked at you. "Guess he feels sick?"

"He's hungover Bo.. Probably wants to go lay down in peace and quiet."

"Maybe..." Bokuto said as he took a seat on your bed.

You took a deep breath. "Bo can we talk?"

He looked at you with a bit of concern.
"Everything okay?"

"Not really... But-"

Bokuto took a seat on your bed and patted down beside him for you to take a seat.

You did as he asked and took a deep breath through your nose.
You cleared your throat.

"Last night..."

"Why do you keep telling me not to fall in love with you?"

"Well...cause you deserve someone who will give you a lifetime together, I can't give you that."

"That's stupid..Just cause you're sick doesn't mean you have to push those away who have feelings for you."

"Are you admitting you have feelings for me?"

"I just don't get it y/nnnn...I tried to stay away from you, try not to get close out of fear that my feelings would get stronger..."

"I'm sorry Akaashi.."

"I get it that you have walls and *hiccup* and shtussffs b-but.. I like you and I want to be the one who makes you *hiccup* smile and uh take you out for dates and treat you like a queen, because  that's what you deserve."
"I-I broke up with Kumi.. Because *hiccup* I met you, and I liked you...I really like you... *hiccup* damn it.."

"I'm sorry...I like you too Akaashi...more and more I see you, but I can't handle the thought of when you lose me.. You'll be heart broken.."

"Id be heart broken if we dated or not regardless..." He choked out.

"One chance.."

And then he kissed me...

Bokuto's eyes were wide and his mouth hung open.

"And he doesn't remember any of it..." You felt a pit in your stomach as you said those words.

Bokuto put a hand on your knee.
"You have to tell him what happened last night..."

You shook your head. "He was drunk.. He probably didn't mean any of it..."

"No, I don't think so, he doesn't really talk about it but I know my best friend, and he wouldn't lie to you."

You sat there in silence.

This is what you wanted right? Should I tell him? Or pretend like it never happened?

"Tell him." Bokuto finally said.

You looked into his golden eyes that were filled with sadness and empathy.

"Bo.."

"Stop it okay! I'm tired of you constantly pushing your feelings away! You can't fight love okay? It comes when you least expect it and you need to enjoy your life before its taken away from you! He said so himself that he'd be heart broken whether you dated or not! So what's stopping you!"

You sat there in surprise for a moment. Not saying anything.
Bokuto got up to walk out the door.

"Fear."

He turned to you. "Huh?"

"Fear is what's stopping me.."

He looked down at the ground. "What are you scared of?"

"Falling madly in love and not accepting my time when it's time...wanting more time, wanting to live longer with him..I'm scared that when I leave, I won't be satisfied with my time here on this earth...I've already accepted that I'll die sooner than most, and if I were to date Akaashi, then I'll be scared to die..."

Bokuto pulled you up from the bed and gave you a tight hug.
"Don't be scared y/n, love is something amazing in this world that everyone should feel...you should stop worrying about death and just live your life. You'll regret it if you don't..."

He pulled away and held your shoulders.
"Go tell him."

You nodded slowly and he rested his hands by his side.

"I know Akaashi...it probably took a lot of confidence to confess to you, he probably would of never of done it if he was sober... But I'm proud of my man doing it.."

He then walked out the door, leaving you in your room with your thoughts.