Life of Remedy Onfroy

3

The Next Day

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I was in my room. I closed my bedroom door and locked it. I plopped down in my bed and turned on 'I Am A Killer" on Netflix. I was watching it until I heard a knock at my door and I few seconds later the knob was turned a little.

"Aye what I tell you bout lockin this door" My dad knocked again

"Oops" I mumbled. I went and unlocked it and went back to my bed. He opened it and looked at me. He closed the door behind him and sat by my feet.

"C'mon. I need to have a talk witchu" he says

"What?" I questioned looking at the TV

"Sit up" he says. I sigh and sat up. I played with my nails.

"You need to-what did I tell you about eye contact when someone is talkin to you" he says lifting my head up by my chin. I looked him in the eyes.

"You need to quit lockin that door. You 14 Remedy.....you ain't got no business in lockin the door" he begins

"Why do you have to lock it?" he questions

"I just do it outta habit" I admit

"It shouldn't be a habit in the first place" he says

"Well when I'm at home then my mom and her boyfriend get on my nerves so I lock the door so they can leave me alone" I explained myself

"I understand it can be a habit but you know you're not allowed to do that over here" he said

"I know. I'm sorry" I apologize

"It's okay baby it's just.......I let you get away with it many times but the next time it happens you're gonna be in trouble okay" he says

"Okay" I sighed

"And I'm not tryna be mean. I just know yo mom could care less about what you do. She gives you too much freedom at 14. There's nothing I can do to change that but you know my rules Remedy but you continue to break this one many times" he says

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to disappoint you" I apologized again looking down at my hands. He lifted my head up, holding it in his hands. 

"Remedy, I'm not disappointed. You will never disappoint me. I'm not mad at you or any of that. I just need you to work on it okay" he caressed my cheeks with his thumbs. I nodded as my eyes watered up.

"Don't cry baby. I'm not disappointed. I promise you I'm not" he says. I nod my head and blink back my tears.

"You hungry?" he questioned. I nod my head.

"C'mon. I think Ally made lunch" he says standing up. We walked out my room and went downstairs to eat lunch.

...

I just got out the shower and let my naturally loose curled hair air dry and let it free. Everyone was outside getting some fresh air except for me, Kehlani, and Leilani because they said it was too cold and they were having 'adult conversations'. I was sitting on the counter having a conversation with Kehlani and Leilani when my dad came in and got a water bottle.

"Y'all okay in here?" he spoke

"Yeah" we all said in sync. He came over to me.

"Do you use like hella hot water or are you scrubbing the fuck out yo face?" He questions

"Both" I say

"Why?" I add

"Cuz yo cheeks are always red like this" he says caressing my cheek

"Does it burn?" he asks

"No" I answer

"Okay do you-" he cut himself off and wrapped his hand around my lower arm. He furrowed his eyebrows.

"Why you shakin like that?" he questioned 

"I don't know. It happens all the time" I shrugged my shoulders.

"Remedy, that's not good" he says

"You not cold?" he asks

"No" I respond

"Are you traumatized by anything?" he questions

"N-no" I stuttered. He looked at me weird.

"What traumatized you?" he asked knowing I wasn't telling the truth

"Whenever my mom got drunk it kinda traumatized me a little. Not a lot though" I admit.

"Does she still drink like that?" he questioned

"Not as much" I say

"Okay. You sure you're okay though?" he repeated. I nod my head. He then walked out. I then went to sit in the living room. I turned on the TV and continued watching 'I Am A Killer' on Netflix.

...

Uncle Stoke came in the house to use the bathroom. I was still watching TV. He came out.

"You okay Rem?" he spoke

"Yeah" I looked at him

"You sure?" he says

"Yeah. I'm sure" I assured him

"Okay" he says walking back outside. Soon I dozed off on the couch.

...

"Rem........Remedy" I was being shook gently. I fluttered my eyes open.

"Go get in your bed baby" My dad spoke. I stretched and got up.

"Goodnight" he says

"Goodnight" I say back

"I love you" he said

"I love you too" I returned. I then headed up to my room and closed my door, remembering not to lock it this time. I turned all my lights off so it was pitch black. Not even the TV was on. That's how I sleep. I got under the covers and fell into a deep sleep.