Fading Away

▪︎ Heartless ▪︎

I z u k u 's P O V

We were in the bus, my earphones blocking the outside voices, my head leaning onto Kacchan's shoulder, his left arm protectively wrapped around me, the sun shining bright, hitting my curly hair, warming me up... I felt at peace.

Kacchan didn't find my razor box, the one I hid inside the suitcase, I couldn't have been more relieved, to be honest... Although I'm not sure if I should actually do it or not, cut I mean, what if he figures it out? He will hurt himself again... because of me. I don't want that-

But I just can't push this urge away...! I feel so weak that I need to hurt myself to feel normal and I'm trying to be a hero... maybe I should just give up...

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T i m e - S k i p

As we got out of the bus, I stretched my arms, that was nearly three hours, I didn't even realize I had fallen asleep on Kacchan's shoulder. Aizawa said we would be going to camp on our own from here but then...

"Midoriya. Come here." He said with a cold tone, the others gave him questioning looks, while he ignored them, I felt my heartbeat rise.

"Y-Yes, sir?" I stuttered and he told me I wouldn't be going with the rest of the class since he wanted to talk to me about something. The rest of the class slept without saying a word.. or rather were dumped off of the cliff by one of the pussycats' quirk.

I got into the car, Mandalay was driving and Aizawa was on the front seat, meanwhile, I sat with her cousin's kid, Kota, in the back. He seemed really sad in one word. Or maybe betrayed?

Once we arrived on the campsite, Kota ran off on his own while Mandalay went to help the others cook dinner for the class, we went inside and sat down, that's when Aizawa finally spoke.

"Kid, we need to talk..." He said with a guilty tone, is he finally expelling me? This is perfect, now I have a reason to kill myself! "Or rather I need to tell you something.." I stayed quiet, thank God I hadn't started muttering, I would've blown my cover, so he continued.

"There was- There was a villain attack, directed at the civilians, the attackers have been captured but they did accomplish what they had come for-"

'What is he talking about...? What does this have to do with me.' I thought to myself, just then a ghastly feeling settles in my stomach, this felt wrong, so wrong.

"Look Izuku, I know it's hard to take but... the villains attacked an airport in America and the list of the deceased was announced publically, y-your mother... she was one of them... I'm terribly sorry."

"W-Wh-What?--"

That was the only thing I could say, I stood frozen, not moving a single muscle, no crying, no nothing. It felt as if my heart had stopped beating. I slowly tilted my head up to see him, thinking this was a fucking joke.

Y-Yeah... any second now, he's going to say he's just kidding!- It can't be true, she can't be dead! S-She can't-- where were the heroes..? Not just her but others died as well!

'It's your fault.'

'If you weren't alive then she wouldn't have to go there to make more money!'

'You should've taken a swan dive off the roof!'

'All you do is cause pain.'